Jumaat, Oktober 31, 2003

HASH(0x83ed414)
Hee! You are Jack's "You have to find
yourself a girl, mate ... you're not a eunuch,
are you?" speech. You're quite a bit sex-
crazed, and you assume that everyone else is as
horny as you are. Get it on as soon as
possible so that you can join the rest of us on
Planet Earth ... I'm sure you'll have a good
time doing so.


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sex crazed? ha ha ha

Ciuman dan zodiak...
Taurus
Berbeza dengan mereka yang berada di bawah naungan Taurus, dimana ciuman mereka umumnya berlangsung sangat perlahan, tidak tergesa-gesa, tenang, penuh kemesraan dan berlangsung terus...terus...dan terus.
---->on and on and on...

macam bahaya jek aku nih. "Get it as soon as possible.." ??! Kena kahwen aa nih. Muahahahaha

Khamis, Oktober 30, 2003

Chatted again with mr. cheesy (dupped by ili). Tonite was different, coz Aqasha (yes, the malay singer a.k.a Encik Imran in c3m a.k.a bf Umie Aida a.k.a Boyanzz*) msged me tonite. Aku tak save what he asked me tapi lebih kurang...
Aqasha: I know you are now chatting with one of my friends.
Aqasha: Is he treating you good?
--->something like that.

Yeah, mr. cheesy is his friend. In fact, it was Aqasha yang kenalkan aku dgn dia. I asked mr. cheesy, apparently Aqasha tanya dia if there is anything going on between the two of us. Adakah ini kerana aku main2 cakap tempohari pada Aqasha? He's taking it seriously kah? Biar benar!!! Adeh...adeh...no no no. Nothing serious! Ni aku gerun ni...belum mula dah banyak citer...
Fine, he's rich. At 22 already drive a Perdana n an Iswara too (buat apa 2 keta?) So what if he's rich? Actually, it makes a lot of difference...ha ha ha should I or shouldn't I? muahahahahaha

Fellow Legardored (yes Lin, kau laa...) let us decide on how we wanna bite, how much we wanna bite. ha ha ha yes, we are insane!! (Bulan pose setan kena ikat...syawal kang baru kita terrorize the city. muahahaha)

Being so pissed off with Dol, sent him an sms.
"Ko nak explain ke tak nak ke...suka hati kau lah. Aku pun malas nak dengar. Kang raya bley mintak maaf. Ciao" --->kalo aku dgr gak explaination dia, ada yg putus sahabat ni kang. He has no good reason, so better be left forgotten. Siap aa ko, dol...raya masak dodol..lalalalalala

Rabu, Oktober 29, 2003

Cerita pasal kenakalan ku...Aiie, aku mana de nakal. Aku buat akaun dia dengan izin. Tho' dia tak tau aku letak that pic, of all the pics I have for him. That pic, I still carry around in my wallet for more than 2 years. *Pengakuan berani* Serious. Ha ha ha...what can I say, he's gorgeous, bebeh!
Note to self: Jangan buat pasal, dia kawan, kawan jek...ok?

Finally gave my phone number to a guy I have been chatting to for like a month. He was whining about me not wanting to give it. Told him I am a lesbian, then gave it anyway.
Early in the morning the called. Awal gilerr!!! 8.30 pagi...padahal we chatted till like 4.30. Tidur lepas Subuh (dia kata lah...) then pukul 8 dah terbangun...terus mandi. Dia kata tak boleh tido balik dah. *Apa jadah tido dalam sejam lebih je?* He was going out, nak pergi workshop coz ada prob dengan powerstereng dia.
Kenapa dia call? Well...these are the reasons he gave me:
1) Nak dengar my morning voice.
2) Takleh tidur balik coz he is missing me.
*Gosh*
Oppss...I did it again. Did I? Or memang aku suke ke dia? Dunno. Dun even know him very well. I like his company, online. I enjoyed his messages on my phone today. Should I go on? Should I retreat? I dun wanna break anyone's heart, particularly mine.
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messes with you is out of their minds.
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Had a blast while checking Dol's friendster account. Admit la, dia mmg kacak.
(check out the pic to sesiapa yang masih belum)


Yup, aku yang create akaun dia. Aku yang upload that pic. Dan aku yang tolong check and reply his messages. Aku yang buat. Why am I having a blast? Coz so many neurotic, idiotic gals coming up with pick up lines nak kawan dengan dia. Funny, funny but true. Heck, with that so empty profile, aku bukan tulis apa pun...and so little testimonials (baru 3, 2 aku yang tulis) so pastilah mereka2 ni nak kenal dgn Dol tu semata2 muka...ha ha
Tak salahkan diorg sangat...kalau aku, apa aku akan buat agaknya?

These are some of the classics, favourite aku...
Assalamualaikum...
hye.. sori if i mengganggu.. u tak kenal i n in de same time i pon xkenal u, actually i ni kwn kpd shazreena n hanin farhana.. kebetulan dorunk berdua tu kwn u jugak.. anyway i juzz want to ask u somethin'.. u keep in touch ngan hanin ke?? i mean kwn rapat ker?? i dah lost contact ngan hanin.. kalo u jumpa dier sampaikan salam i kat dier yer.. plzz i beg u.. suruh ar dier masuk jadi kwn i .. i dah antar msg kat dier, but dier tak reply pon.. thanx.
--->alasan sungguh

Reply by 'Dol' (yelah...aku yang tulis, konon2 dia aa)
w'salam...
shazreena tuh saya just add. dun really know her. hanin, dah tak contact sangat but u msg farina tu, dia still close with hanin. maybe she can help


And her relpy yang sangat menyayat rasa:
timer kasih bebanyak... really appriciate it.. i loven' it... hehhehechup, u xnak add me as ur fren ker.. ?? ermm tak nak xpelah juzz asking.. hehehehe...
bye


Ayatttt!!! Ha ha ha tolong aa awek! "u xnak add me as ur fren ker??"

By the way, aku sebetulnya pissed off with Dol. Totally. Aku belum dengar explaination dia lagi. Tak nak dengar. Tunggu aku cool. Kalau aku tak puas hati, aku sunat dia lagi sekali. Kalau aku puas hati, aku sepak dia sampai kudung. Either way...mmg dia nak kena belasah. (Sorry about the violence)

Selasa, Oktober 28, 2003

Got these from a very caring friend (Special shout out to Nur Raudha Ismail for making my day!) "Gurls like us dun wanna feel skeptical so we'll skip it instead of leading people on cus we love ourselves too and dun wanna neglect our own interest for the sake of other people.... " unquote. It's amazing sometimes when we have something on our mind but can't seem to find the right words for it and then voila! somebody else go on and say it. Wow...that's exactly how I feel, Raudha, thanks a lot.

Does your name begin with: F
You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favourite fantasy past time. You can be a very generous lover.--->ku akui ku tak hanya hinggap di satu hati, ku takuti ku terlalu liar tuk' dimiliki, walau begitu semua hanya persinggahan ego ku, dan sikapmu telah merobohkan aku - 'Trimakasih Bijaksana (Sheilaon7)

MAY
>> Stubborn and hard-hearted--->degil, keras hati, kepala batu...the things I have been associated with
>>Strong-willed and highly motivated--->pasti berjaya di Akademi Fantasia!
>>Sharp thoughts--->when I am not too lazy to think
>> Easily angered--->don't mess with me...muahahaha
>> Attracts others and loves attention--->true, never like to be on the sidelines. But never had the courage to be totally upfront. maybe aku kena bertanchap nih...
>> Deep feelings--->sensitive is the word to describe me, not fragile
>> Beautiful physically and mentally--->mueh mueh mueh...this, I can't say more. Beauty is the eye of its beholder...I am beautiful. ye heyyy
>> Firm standpoint
>> Easily influenced--->these two I dun understand...firm standpoint but easily influenced. Hummrpp...how can they go hand in hand?
>> Needs no motivation--->only I can motivate myself...to sleep. he he
>> Easily consoled--->senang dipujuk? yes, lembut hati aku ni sebetulnya...nampak je cam brutal
>> Systematic (left brain)--->looking at the state of my disorganized room, I am systematic. Hey, aku takleh jumpa barang kalau bilik aku kemas! Weird kan?
>> Loves to dream--->Dream, dream, dream...yes, I am a dreamer. Tanpa keberanian mimpi takkan bermakna...but it is so nice to keep on dreaming
>> Strong clairvoyance--->my sixth sense is strong...so ppl say. Boleh buat bisnes tilik nasib kah?
>> Understanding--->i can be understanding or i can act understanding when i dun understand...ha ha. come talk to me ppl!
>> Sickness usually in the ear and neck--->that's why now i have a personal doctor whom I consult online...specialist Ears, Nose and Throat. Sibuk suruh aku pergi check tonsil dgn dia, nak operate...takott!!
>> Good imagination--->ha ha ha kalau pasal merapu, serah padaku
>> Good debating skills--->no wonder my 1st bf dulu was a debater..he he kisah klasik utk masa depan
>> Good physical--->good? humrpp...ni belum slim lagi nih. Diet, diet... ;p
>> Weak breathing--->astmatic...resdung...flu...just name it.
>> Loves literature and the arts--->This one I totally agree!! Now more than ever, thanks to the influence from Zul Huzaimy! You're the man... I tell you that.
>> Loves travelling--->love it too much but dun have the money. That's why most of my time watching tv, I spent it watching Travelling Channel. Ha...then I can dream of going places. (kena carik laki kaya, suruh bawak honeymoon around the globe!)
>> Dislike being at home--->this one is not quite true to me. Home is where the heart is
>> Restless--->ohh..yes. Some says aku hyper, tak leh dok diam. ha ha
>> Not having many children--->alamak...cannot komen but I would actually love a big family like mine.
>> Hardworking--->walaupun last minute
>> High spirited--->Never Let The Spirit Die - KRU
>> Spendthrift--->memang...tapi under control. I have to control la..bakal akauntan maa...hu hu

Taurus

Turn ons

Stability and dependability characterize Taurus. They like people who can blend and grow with them. If you have a Taurus partner you should appreciate all things bright and beautiful. They have an inherent artistic sense and are fond of color and music. Judge the life with them from purely materialistic point of view. Enjoy everything luxurious that money can provide. Enjoy good food (better if you can cook to please them) and good drinks with them.--->true, true, true

Turn offs
Taurus is very slow to anger (in fact you may spend the whole life with them and still no spark) but you should not push your luck too much. Being unreasonable or aggressive with them may get you into trouble. Do not press him into a corner and if you do be prepared for a violent rage. Taurus is capable of violent outbursts though this is on very rare
occasions. If you have a roving eye forget it because Taurus have can take the cake when it comes to being possessive. They can be suffocating when being possessive about you.--->ha ha ha hope i will not become suffocating. Anyway, if bf aku nanti have a roving eye, I can keep my eyes roving too lah kan? It's only fair.
Taurus (Apr 21 - May 20)
You are stubborn and like to hold onto things, not wanting to let go of anything or anyone. You are slow to anger, but when you do get worked up to a rage - everyone step aside! You also have a selfish streak and can be quite sneaky as well. And although people may see you as helpful and agreeable, you sometimes have an inner struggle wanting the approval of others while sticking to your own opinions. You also tend to be suspicious of others and question their motives.

Advice: Stop being mean and try to be nice. Learn to forgive and let go of your past disappointments. Learn from your mistakes and have faith in yourself and others as well.


Just after I published the prev. entry (read: below) a friend gave me this in ym. Ok, I'll try to be nice, I'll try to have faith...i think that is one very valid reason on why I am staying single, coz I dun believe it when guys say they like me. I get suspicious, I raise my shield. I like myself, no, no...love myself but I cant figure out what ppl see when they say they do, too. Paranoid...I am. So shoot me.
Do I need professional help?
Maybe my life is not so interesting after all.
Am I sounding depressed? Blame it on PMS. Damn PMS.
TAURUS : April 21 May 20
You are generally quiet and hv control over your emotions. It is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose yr cool, people don't know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you'll be the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset when you are cornered or when people accuse you of doing something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes you've made in the past. You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.


True. Aku jenis lambat marah...tapi kalau aku marah, u would not wanna be near me. Let me be. Let me sleep, or whatever. Tapi jangan kacau aku. Lepas tu aku cepat cool. he he...sape nak try?

Isnin, Oktober 27, 2003

1. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
--->Morning? hu hu depends on what time kelas aku mula. but cuti...ok, i have to admit...12. hu hu

2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS
PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE?
---->Anuar Zain coz he's so sweet...i'll have him for dessert after lunch!

3. GOLD OR SILVER?
--->Gold. definitely

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE
CINEMA?
----> Cinta Kolestrol. Sampai menangis2 tengok. ha ha...aku jiwang. Apa nak kata, Yusry kan kekasih lama ;p

5. FAVOURITE TV SHOW?
---->Friends, Sex and The City, Malcolm in the middle, Akademi Fantasia

6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
----> Cornflakes with milk, and apple cider vinegar with honey for drink.

7. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE LEFT IN A ROOM
WITH?
----> Anuar Zain. ha ha ha then I can tell for sure dia gay ke tidak

8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?
--->Nope

9.WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
----> People with vision n mission and works to achieve it.

10. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
--->Tadek..he he binti bleh?

11. BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY?
----> Country.

12.SUMMER OR WINTER?
----> Winter...mcm lebih romantik...

13. YUM?
----> Anuar Zain. ha ha ha ok, Zul Huzaimy comes close behind.

14. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
---->carameled aa sedap. kalo takleh...salted.

15. FAVOURITE CAR?
----> Keta sorong baby ;p (ehem, ehem...)

16. FAVOURITE SANDWICH FILLING?
---->chicken mayo

17. FAVOURITE TYPE OF MUSIC?
---->All but dangdut. Dangdut is the music of my country...ha ha ha

19. WHAT CHARACTERISTIC DO YOU DESPISE
---->hypocracy.

20. FAVOURITE FLOWER?
---->roses. black ones. ok, red will do

21. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW
LONG WOULD YOU WAIT TO SPEND ALL?
---->what do you mean...wait? kidding me?! ha ha spend it all terus la...keep spending, keep on spending...

22. DO YOU WEAR PYJAMAS?
---->yes.

23. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
---->dark brown, if not black. paspot tulis dark brown.

24. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
---->3, kunci keta, kunci alarm, kunci stereng

25. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO RETIRE?
---->anywhere, as long as i get to be with the one i love... ;p wuhuuuu

26. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
----> no. anyone can teach?

27. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
----> mana2 hari yang tak ada kelas (or hari yang aku ponteng kelas). consider it holiday!!!

28. RED OR WHITE WINE?
---->dont drink.

30. DO YOU CARRY A DONOR CARD?
---->nopes

31.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
---> 'Coming of Age' by G. Wayne Miller

32. FAVOURITE BOARD GAME?
---> Saidina

33. FAVOURITE MAGAZINE?
---> Majalah sekolah.

34. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
---> bau hujan...comforting

35. COMFORT FOOD?
starbuck's caramel rhumba frappe

36.FAVOURITE SOUND?
---> Anuar Zain's voice. fuhh...sing me a lullaby, will you?

37. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
---> feeling depressed for no good reason

38. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN
YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
pukul berapa dah ni?

39.FAVOURITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
----> Burger King

41. FINISH THIS STATEMENT. "IF I HAD A LOT OF
MONEY,
---> invest, invest, invest so i'll have more money!!!

43. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
---> not anymore. used to have a lot masa kat sekolah, now all given away to my nieces. sob...sob...

44. STORMS, COOL OR SCARY?
----> scary

47. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE
TIME,
----> i would finish all my assignments in time, revise my studies...ha ha kita bercakap cerita IF kan? owhh...who am I kidding??!

48. DO YOU EAT STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
--->yes sir

49. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR,
WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE?
---> pink. ha ha

50. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED?
---> i dun have a bed. i sleep the japanese way, on a mattress.

Sabtu, Oktober 25, 2003

THIS WILL BE ULTRA LONG. IF YOU HAVE NO DESIRE TO READ THIS, BY ALL MEANS PLEASE SKIP. THANK YOU


Chapter 1
Still some people ask me, "Macamana kenal Zul?". Well, some la. Most ppl tak kenal Zul lagi. he he
I am taking this opportunity to document my process of knowing him, not only utk menyenangkan aku kalau orang lain tanya aku boleh kasi link to this blog aje, but also for my own reminder. Aku ni pelupa, maklumlah dah tua.

First aku tengok Zul on TV, watak kecil je dalam cerekarama bertajuk 'Bunga Kasturi'. Menda pertama yang keluar dalam otak aku bila tengok dia, 'this guy is cute! and he's something...he'll be big'. Ntah kenapa...perhaps coz he had what I'll say...screen presence, kot. And he can act. Betul, tak tipu. Anyway, lepas cite tu sibukla tunggu keluar nama2 pelakon. Zul Huzaimy Marzuki...hmm, made a mental note to keep a look out for him.

Can't remember what happened next. Ada tengok dia in some drama, cerekarama, tapi jarang. Bukan sahaja Zul jarang muncul di TV malah yg sebetul-betulnya, aku yang jarang tengok tv. Until I heard he'll act in teater bangsawan Tengku Anum. Antara Bunga Kasturi dan Tengku Anum, adalah tempoh yang sangat lama! Mula2 time Mak offer tickets to watch it, malas je but after knowing Zul was in the cast, apa lagi...wajibbbb!!!
1st time, dalam Disember 2002 rasanya, Tengok Tg Anum dengan deg-degan di dada, straight lepas kelas, went with Ika, Azim, Shida n Raj. Zul jadi anak raja Siam. Kawaii des! (Japanese for: Comel!!) Lepas show, waited for him outside the actors' changing room, armed with camera. (Check out the pic in my album, 2-2 muke so innocent, 2-2 macam baru habis kelas. mueh mueh, looks can be deceiving)
2nd time, kali ni pergi tengok teater Alang Rentak Seribu pulak, February 2003. Kali ni went with Anis, Sidah and Min, bawak pic taken time Tg Anum. Suruh dia sign...and he wrote,
To Farina,
1) Tg. Anum
2) ARS
---->that's Alang Rentak Seribu, ppl
3) ???---->masih menjadi persoalan dihati
This time baru chat up with him. The first time, I dare not. Untung this time aku dah gune kuasa internet, made a research about him so I have things to ask, things to talk about, utk mengelak aku bertanya soalan bodoh2 je. he he...dan, ok to be honest...i tried to impress him. Did it work? Well, i got his email. Only. Takpe...usaha lagi.
Kali ke 3 bertemu...ok, ni memang kerja gila aku. The first ARS aku tengok on Rabu, then on Jumaat lepas kelas Ika call aku asking about harga tiket...diorg nak pergi pulak! Huwaa...nak ikott!!! Aku ingat lagi time ni, baru lepas beli nasi dgn tomyam campur, dengan tak makan dari pagi lagi, makan sesuap then tukar skirt, terus rush to Istana Budaya. Thank God jalan tak jam! Time Ika call aku, diorg dah half way pun. Fuhh, kalah michael 'shoemaker' aku pecut! *Konon* Kali ni so calmly waited for Zul after the show. *Konon* Ha ha...dia nampak je aku, terperanjat gile. Speechless. I still remember what he said... "Awak, terima kasih je tak cukup nak tunjuk penghargaan saya ni...sebab support apa saya buat...saya...saya...ishk, tak tau nak cakap apa!" (Aku tau, between the lines, yg left unspoken 'Awek gile ni datang lagi' ha ha ha acah mak enon!) And kali ni, he gave his number. FINALLY! "Jangan bagi orang lain ye?" , kata Zul. Kataku kepada Zul, "Awak bagi pada saya tadi, maknanya awak percaya saya kan? Kalau percaya saya, tolonggg lah percaya yang saya takkan bagi pada org lain". Ayat power tak? ha ha ha well, you know me ;p
Pulang dari Istana Budaya, aku sms dia just to wish good nite and apa lagi aku tulis ntah. Dalam pukul 2 lebih, an unidentified number called.
Caller: Farina, ambil number ni ye. Number tadi tu tak ada credit.
Aku: Huhh? Sape ni...Zul ye?
Caller: Iye, saye...
Aku: (dengan penuh bunga2 chenta dlm hati) Oh, ok...thanks...(maintain, maintain)
Apalagi kitorang cakap...aku tak ingat dah. Huwaa!! Ini lah penting nya documentation! I should have done this long ago! tsk tsk
Masa lepas tengok ARS kali ke 2, selalu jugak Zul call, atau aku call dia...nak tanya2 khabar. Bila dia ajak minum, malangnya aku pulak tengah sibuk dgn exams n assignments, time2 dah dekat finals. "Hai, bile la kita nak keluar ni, wak? Nanti kalau kita keluar, dari pagi sampaiiiii malam pun takpe. Saya belanja" kata Zul. Ha ha ha those were the days!

bersambung...
Part of an article from Hai bil. 376 (Zul Huzaimy on the cover with Misha Omar and Intan Sarafina)...

DIPUJI ROSYAM NOOR

Ibarat seperti jauhari mengenal manikam. Hanya pelakon yang bagus sahaja yang dapat mengenali pelakon yang baik.
Rosyam Noor sebelum ini, dalam sebuah artikel harian tempatan, telah memuji beberapa pelakon baru yang mempunyai bakat besar, Antara yang disenaraikan termasuklah Zul Huzaimy.
Sewaktu perkara tersebut ditanyakan kepada Zul, sebagai pelakon, dia benar-benar rasa terbeban.
"Saya memang minat dengan lakonan Rosyam, tambahan pula dia seorang pelakon senior dan banyak pengalaman. Sebenarnya, saya memang mencari peluang untuk mengenali Rosyam dengan lebih rapat dan berlakon bersama-samanya. Tetapi peluang itu tidak pernah ada."
"Lagi satu perkara, saya sebenarnya rasa tidak selesa apabila setiap kali dipuji. Bagaimanapun kata-kata Rosyam itu sebenarnya saya lihat sebagai satu sindiran agar saya terus bekerja keras."
"Apabila Rosyam memuji, bermakna dia memerhatikan perkembangan kerjaya saya."
"Daripada sudut lain, saya melihat kejayaan Rosyam sebagai pelakon sebenarnya turut dibantu oleh keserasiannya bekerja dengan beberapa orang pengarah. "
"Sebagai contoh, Rosyam dan Rashid Sibir cukup sinonim. Mereka bukan sahaja rapat sebagai pengarah dan pelakon tetapi juga sebagai seorang kawan. "
"Sebagai seorang pelakon. jika mereka sudah jumpa pengarah yang tahu dan kenal mereka lebih rapat, ia membolehkan mereka bekerja dengan lebih baik. Ini kerana pengarah terabit tahu bagaimana hendak 'mengeluarkan' bakat yang ada dalam diri mereka."
"Sebagai pelakon, itu jugalah yang saya cari. Setakat ini, pengarah yang mampu 'memerah' saya memberikan persembahan terbaik dalam lakonan seperti Namron, Adlin, Marlia Musa dan Ahmad Yatim," ujarnya seraya mengakhiri perbualan.


Had a lengthy conversation with Zul about this article. I am glad he opened up to me, telling me so many things and we shared our views tentang pujian dan sindiran. Can't exactly write what he said, sebab panjanggggggg gile (Sampai member aku, Suti, naik bosan tunggu) and sebab, it is our secret ehehe...but, all in all, it made me feel lebih mengenal dia. I can say I'm glad for that.

Anyone has views about this article? Sesiapa rasa Zul merendah diri ke, atau rude ke atau apa saja...please do post ur feedback so I can give them to Zul. Thanks.
Just got back from Tanchap v5!!! Baju pun belum salin, cuci mekap sambil tunggu pc aku on and straight menulis. Semangat siot he he he Ada apa dengan Tanchap v5? Well...you will soon find out.

What are the differences between Tanchap v4 and v5? Basically, Tanchap v5 is NOT a Tanchap. It is a makan-makan, pot luck thingy. Serious. So performance sikit je, makanan banyak...help urself, and as Edris (on of Tenggara members said) "If you come to Tanchap v5, you are part of our family" Thrill lak. ha ha well if it wasn't for Zul, aku dah nak balik dah awal2 before show mule coz gile segan n dia dtg lambat. Pukul 10 baru nak mula, and tak ramai mcm the other time. Patut nya only members. Chett, Zul tak cakap. Aku call Zul, kasitau dia aku nak balik aa. What he said made me changed my mind... "Jangan mcm tu, diorg tu semua kawan2 awak jugak". Sweet.

Jiggy n Dila was there. Kazen Jiggy tak nak masuk terus nak balik, berkompromi dgn kasi Jiggy duduk dalam cafe til pukul 10 (kalah Cinderella dik, even she got till midnite) So she left before the show even starts. Tak lama after Jiggy ciao Zul sampai, sat with us (Aku, Suti n Dila) sambil tgk replay Tanchap v4, particularly his performance then show pun mulalah. Sayangnya, Jiggy dah la datang nak jumpa Zul je. If she had waited for like...5 minit jek, sure can meet him. Poor gal.

How was the show? As ever...so damn good! Better today coz there was less crowd so everyone, even the new groups were not so shy, and they are more in their element. Zul pun dengan sajaknya, bertajuk Opera Pak Pandir. Still unsur blue tapi lebih sopan. Ahh...semua org suruh dia buat sajak tak sopan macam hari tuh gak, dia tak nak. Ha ha ha nak puasa beb! Still cool. For me, of course...he is the highlight of the show. Ha ha ha *ok, aku bias.*
Pot sang NANTI. Fave song tuh. Everything else aku tak berapa ingat...tapi best, best, and memang best. *Sorry no pics today, tak bawak kamera pun. Just nak hang around and enjoy, tak nak terkejar2 amik pic*

Wokies...bile next Tanchap?...i hear some of you say. Insya Allah 2 weeks after raya. Till then, gotta listen to all crap in the radio *Bola-bola api...* hua hua hua!!! Salam Ramadhan dari Persatuan Tanchap Negara!

Jumaat, Oktober 24, 2003

Pengumuman:

HMI bersama EXISTS
Artis jemputan: OAG
Tarikh: 8 November 2003 (tengah bulan pose tuh)
Waktu: Time HMI pukul berapa?
Segalanya Mungkin (HEADWIND)
Malam siang ku lalui
Dengan debaran di hati
Pengalaman teman-teman
Membuat ku rasa bimbang
Di dalam kehidupan
Segalanya berkemungkinan

Hari ini aku tahu
Ku tak meraguimu
Kerna telah jadi bukti
Kau setia pada janji
Tetapi esok hari
Tak tahu apa 'kan terjadi

( korus 1 )
Ku ingin pertahankan
Sebuah kejujuran
Ingin ku bersamamu
Ke akhir hayatku

( korus 2 )
Namun ku tak berani
Berjanji dengan pasti
Kita hanya merancang
Tuhan yang menentukan

Jangan kau salah mengerti
Dengan pengakuan ini
Usah disalah tafsirkan
Bukan ku tak sayang

Ku mahu kau menginsafi
Dengan kehidupan ini
Segala berkemungkinan
Untuk terjadi




I love this song, for its words. Habsah Hassan did her magic again. Segalanya berkemungkinan...a point to ponder, ppl.

Khamis, Oktober 23, 2003

Heyyooooooooo!!!!!!!!

farina's back with a vengence, jeng jeng jeng...ha ha from monday til today, temankan my mom for conference in port klang. well, she goes off for meetings, aku duduk dlm bilik tgk tv, tgk vcd, lulur dlm bilik air...bad thing is, aku tak bawak moisturiser. bawak cleanser je. akibatnya, muka aku jadi kering gaban sampai mengelupas! oh no...
Good thing is, one night masa tgh layan vcd (Takuya Kimura's GIFT, got to see him naked in this one. muahahaha) Tibe2 dengar satu suara aneh. Jeng jeng jeng...suara orang menyanyi! Mule2 mcm seram gak...dengar bali betul2...eh, macam Dayang Nurfaizah punya suara la! Rupanya ada Perhimpunan BN and as always, they have artists singing. Hotel ni dekat je dgn tapak perhimpunan so aku dengar jelas dan nyata n even nampak the big, giant screen. Dalam hati berdetik, kalau ada Dayang...alangkah bagusnya kalo ada...Anuar Zain. With that, aku sambung tengok vcd.
Tak lama kemudian aku dengar lagi suara yang tidak aneh, namun LUAR BIASA! Anuar Zain!!! Bersusah payah aku tolak tingkap hotel sampai terbukak walaupun patutnya tak boleh, semata2 nak dengar kemantapan suaranya. Vcd kemana, Takuya ke mana...kerana Anuar Zain aku turutkan. Habis Keabadian Cinta, Abang Nuar tanya, siapa sini cintakan saya? *ME!ME!ME!* laung aku dari kejauhan. As if he can hear me but what the heck.
Anuar then duet dengan Dayang...lagu Makin Aku Cinta....terasa aku yg berduet dengan dia. Mueh Mueh Mueh

All in all, the trip to Port Klang was nice...just because of Anuar Zain. Lovely.

Isnin, Oktober 20, 2003

FOR 19TH OKTOBER 2003...

HAPPY
HAPP
HAP
HA
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B
BI
BIR
BIRT
BIRTH
BIRTHD
BIRTHDA
BIRTHDAY
NAEMAH
NAEMA
NAEM
NAE
NA
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S
SA
SAK
SAKT
SAKTI


makin tua, makin sakti sayang...mueh mueh mueh

Rabu, Oktober 15, 2003

Semalam, lepas paper B.Comm yang freaking easy (damn, aku berlagak) but tak cukup masa nak buat...aku decided to go to mmu to release tension. Coz baru dapat tahu that FlopPoppy will also perform!!! Damn....that, I've got to see. Does not mean aku tak nak tgk the Tenggara Performance Club but diorg, I can see at any time at a better place and better surroundings...not too many people around. As for the contestants, yeah they were cool, I'm impressed. But well, tak tengok pun tak pe kot...muahahaha
Masa tengah walk to the MPH, saw Flop Poppy walking around. Masa tu, aku cool, cool... (walaupun dah sikit rasa nak terkam but...cool, cool). Kena beratur for like 15 to 20 minutes, then baru allowed to enter. Masa nak masuk...aku tertoleh ke kanan and...wait a sec, that is...that is...HUsseinnnn!!! Oshhh!!! Omigod, omigod!!! Aku ingat only VE, Ruffedge and Innuendo but...Husseinnnn??!! Owh, owhshh...cool, cool. Lepas tu dah masuk pun dok maintain cool although asyik tertoleh2 ke belakang to see hussein. Damn, dia dok depan Douge. Jeles.
Anyway...performance...talk about performances...they did a lil' tanchap there, sajak Cinta n Blues Kambing. Mueh mueh mueh... good one!
MMU students' show was good, with own songs n all, perghh...i know it took guts to stand there n sing. Bravo ppl!!!
Flop Poppy's performance...is a must see one!!! Dah la kitorg ni dok bersila2 depan stage dgn gumbiranya, depan sekali pulak tuh...and I am right in front of Wandy, the bassist. The VERY cute bassist. Very, very, very. Muahahaha (add dia dlm list jejaka pojaan). Aku dengar cerita that he's Siti Saerah's bf, siapa boleh confirm kan? Tapi tak kisah, kalaupun betul...setakat Siti Saerah? Hellehhh...
Anyway the pics I took there masih belum di developkan...later later I upload k?

Selasa, Oktober 14, 2003

I have tried to upload pics of Tanchap n pics of me and Zul tapi keluarnya kosong jek. Nantilah kapan2 Mbak Naem will provide the link to those pics, ya Mbakk? So you people boleh view sendirik.
I have moved. Again. So sorry menyusahkan. Aku cuma nak menulis dengan sejujur-jujurnya, to share any of my experiences with all you, my dear friends, tanpa menyakitkan hati sesiapa in that process, sambil menjaga hati sendiri juga. Simple explaination. So I welcome all of you to join me here, sambil aku membina empayar KRUjaan...muahahaha...
Gotta go back to studying. Penatttt!!!

Jumaat, Oktober 10, 2003

Wahhh saiiiii!!!
Ettah (my sis) got another msg from Encik Shahrul Anuar Zain. Rasa nak pengsan lagi aku. He remembered, "Farina, and her sis, Fitrah" Well at least Azlan Abu Hassan said so. Paling aku tensen when Azlan told me, that he just came back dari sesi makan2 sate dgn Anuar. Kat mana? Restoran Yus, for God's sake!
Apa Anuar tulis...

assalamualaikum


Message: hi fitrah. hw r u. tq 4 calling ERA that day.
wish u all the best in whatever u do. take care
and god bless. Wasallam


SHAHRUL ANUAR ZAIN


Yeah well, he remembered. Hope he'll remember that till the time comes yang aku dan dia akan bertemu...hi hi hi (gelak kontrol sebab Anuar cakap dalam Muzik@RIA, dia suke perempuan manja dan lemah lembut)
Aku buat resolusi untuk lebih melepak di Sungai Ramal mulai hari ini, coz apparently Anuar does. Told Azlan that. Dengan selambe dia berkata, "ha ha seronokla Mohariz". Hantu, kepala hotak dia!! *opps...lupa nak kontrol* Mohariz plak...apalah mamat tuh bagitau Azlan. Siot sungguh diorg bergossip belakang aku. Ehh helo, kalo aku lepak Sungai Ramal adalah kerana Anuar Zain, dan hanya kerana Anuar Zain. Oh ye, sebab nak makan jugak la. Tapi tu sebab kedua. Sebab utama, nak jumpa Anuar Zain.

Kalau sesiapa pelik tentang perubahan cuaca aku, kejap Zul kejap Ako kejap Anuar Zain (well, aku sure most of you tak pelik but just in case...) Alasan aku: Kapasiti hati aku tinggi. Bleh muat banyakkkk banyakkkk!!! ;p

Khamis, Oktober 09, 2003

The email addy is panthera_leo82@hotmail.com.
might not be able to reply in the near future if u send me mails coz nak exam next week but just send them in anyway, i will reply a.s.a.p.
As for Tanchap, it can happen anytime, anywhere, as long as there's ppl who wanna express themselves. Itu yang Abang Razman, the owner or tuan tanah of Pepper Leaf said. As for sharing Ako n Anuar, welcome to the club! He he he about Lah ek, I am not sure about my feelings towards him. Mungkin you can have him all for urself, takyah share2 kot? Nanti i pikir kan ek?
As for now...aku gile kan ZHM! That is...Zul Huzaimy Marzuki, tuan2 dan puan2...


Aku lupa nak tulis about some performance yang aku consider highlights for last nite:
1. When Zain of RuffEdge serenaded a girl name Ruzanna with *surprise,surprise* Search's Ruzanna. Kalau akulah awek tuh, dah cair plus meleleh on the spot.
2. Lah n Hussein punya lagu blues merapu yang liriknya mengisahkan air limau yang telah tumpah maka Lah terpaksa mengelapnya. What a damn cool impromtu song! *clap,clap*
3. Taj n Cat's Cinta...a poem. Which I can have that poem to frame up and hang on my bedroom wall.
4. Pot singing apa ntah lagu. Perghh..Pot. And Pot's laugh when he declare Innuendo takkan perform dimana2 selain di Tanchap. FUhh...gelak setanmu tetap ku kenang, Pot.
5. Of course, the one I have wrote about dgn panjang lebar, Zul's 'Cik Ramlah dan Saya mati umur 7 tahun'. Brilliant!

Korang, aku dah nak exam so please doakan aku ye? Semoga bleh habiskan final year nih. Semoga leh cepat kerja (dan kahwin) Semoga...
Muahahahaha!!!
Layar Tanchap v4 was grrrreattttttt!!! Great crowd, great performers, great ppl to look at (what can I say, a girl is a girl is a girl)
Ok...cool down Cik Farina, lets tell this story the way it is. Apa itu Layar Tanchap? Basically, a place where you can share whatever you want, in the crowd of Tenggara Performers with the talent of Innuendo, RuffEdge and V.E. Muahahaha... Aku tatau pun mereka tuh ada, ingat Zul aje org yg aku kenal. People can just sit around, feeling comfy bersila2, and so near to everyone. No stage pun. It's like (taking Pot's word) layar yg mobile, bisa ditanchap dimana pun. Anyway, Zul told me the show will start at 8. Me, being the overzealous friend of him that I am, arrived 5 minutes before. Looking at the flyers they have in front of the Pepper Leaf Cafe, I thought to myself, never to trust Zul. Show ditulis starts at 8.30. To Malaysians, naturally...that would mean, 9. So show mula pukul 9 *huhh*
I dont really remember aturcara majlis, but dont blame me, there are no aturcara actually. They just call anyone who wishes to contribute anything, there were groups like Soul Dinero, Frequent *something, aku tak ingat*, Sabrina n Ruzanna, of course ada Lah, Zaf n Damian (ahli baru) of VE, Cat n Zain of RuffEdge, n Pot n Taj (who is looking so...insane in his kain sarong) of Innuendo. There's Sasi the Don, and, the winner of Tanchap award goes to (jeng jeng jeng...) ZUL HUZAIMY MARZUKI!!!.
He performed 2 very, very, very (ok, mungkin aku bias. bite me. Tanya Lissa, kan Lissa, best kan?) funny n creative poems yang dia tulis sendiri. Tak larat gelak. 1st poem tu pasal seorg janda bernama Ramlah yg masih menetekkan anaknya walaupun dah 3-4 tahun. Dia kesunyian dan dan mencari kesedapan dari seorang gembala lembu. Last2 balik dari projek dgn gembala, tgh baring2 syok2, anak dia nak susu. Maka dibuka baju dan coli, alangkah terperanjat nya Cik Ramlah bila anaknya berkata dgn pelat "Mak oo Mak, teteknya bau rokok" Muahahahahaha
Sebelum dia start the 2nd poem, he thanked his friends for coming. Ehemm... that would of course, include... ME!!! (Thanks to Farina n the geng, bla...bla..bla...) Yes, nama aku first. Personally aku fikir mungkin ini satu reason dia dapat award best Tanchap for the nite. Mungkin, mungkin. ;p
2nd one dia baca dgn lajunya, mujur lepas tu aku suruh dia recite balik untuk aku *Demand* Pasal seorg budak yang sekolah sampai darjah 1, dgn cikgu yg seksi meksi, masa exam dapat 10 markah, tu pun nasib tiru buku teks bawah meja kalau tak mampus nak jawab apa. Balik ke rumah ayah gembira, bwk memancing malam2 buta. Gile ke ayah dia bwk memancing mlm2 bute? Anyway...he ended it up with a song...
Memancing dengan ayah ku rasa bertuah,
Pulang sebelum hujan,
Tapi kami gembira kerana ada kawan,
BERNAMA SCOTTS EMULSION!!!

Dan sebagai award, Taj n Pot beri dia...Buku Ayatul Kursi. Alhamdulillah.
Dari pukul 9-12, i enjoyed myself tremendously. Stayed around for like 1 and 1/2 hours lepas tu, borak dgn Zul. The people there sgt friendly, kadang aku lupa aku ke artis ke dia yg artis? Taj plak yg datang nak amik pic dgn kitorg. Idola aku dari sekolah, Pot sgt rajin mengangkat kipas. Lah, ok..ok...Lah was nice. Cute even. Ha ha ha aku takleh tgk dia, rasa bersalah lak kutuk dia dulu. Borak dgn dia lepas show, he's cool. Ok Zeff, aku setuju la ko kenen aku dgn dia. Muahahaha Kitorg sempat lagi makan cheese cake, courtesy of Pepper Leaf Cafe n biskut Tanchap (Pot dtg serve kitorg) All that, free of charge.
Actually, it was quite an experience. Loved every second of it, even to the part when we were leaving and they sang to us (Good bye, farewell..bla bla bla) Yelah, last ppl to leave. All sebab Zul. Ok, ok...he is not to blame. Left the place with a fuzzy feeling inside of me, macam dilamun cinta except, I dunno with whom. Hussein? Zul? Pot? Taj? Zain? Lah? Perhaps with everyone, everything there...200% fun and excitemenr and it's free!!! Anything can beat that?
I will try to upload the pics I took at Tanchap last nite later. Last sekali...lets sing... BERNAMA SCOTTS EMULSION!!!

Rabu, Oktober 08, 2003

Anuar Zain was on Era today. Hu hu bangun2 tido je gave my phone a shot...damn damn!!! I got thru! Talked to him at first, though I know my sis was squirming to talk to him actually. She was on the phone from 11.15 trying to call Era, walaupun Abang Nuar (check out the nama manja seh) on air pukul 12. And aku, after 4-5 try (you know how hard it is to get thru) dapat la plak. Talk about jodoh man!!!
So selepas membuat pengakuan berani yang aku gilakan dia ( Anuar: Wahh...mari kita gile2 bersama2!) aku passed the phone to my sis. Chiehh...speechless. Hampeh.
But Abang Nuar was real nice, really sweet...mak aih, gelak dia infectious. Sape nak dgr sore dia, aku ada record on my phone. Gimme a call.
Abang Nuar, when will you make an honest woman out of me? muahahahahahaha... (Now I am speechless)
People...
Need to get another thing out of my chest.
I LOVE ANUAR ZAIN!!!
Thank you

Sesiapa... (ayumodjo...this call is especially for you) tolong pinang kan Anuar Zain utk aku. Atau aku utk Anuar Zain. Mana2 pun takpe coz the outcome is the same.
Gay ke dia? Aku yakin tak. Even if he is...aku tak kisah lerrr...ha ha ha

owhh...as for the someone prob, consider solved. He is willing to forgive n forget, fine with me.

Peon n Zeffirelli,
Lah masuk Eh! list of 20 org paling gorgeous dlm Malaysia. Hmm...is he? tsk..tsk...

Tadi tgk Anugerah Era 2002, yg ada Element performing 'Bukan Org Suci'. Now...that's what I call gorgeous. Nyummm nyumm... Apsal dulu tak perasan Abang Ferdy se'gorgeous' itu? Butakah mataku? Owhh...masa tu nampak Didi jek. Abang sayang, abang di mana...hati risau mengenang dikau...

Selasa, Oktober 07, 2003

Someone is pissed off. Yeah, like Lin being pissed off when her someone deleted her testi. I did just that. Deleted his testi. Why? For so many reasons that I cant even start explaining. I am evil with good intentions. Truly. With him telling ppl that I am the only one that understands him in this world...made me feel like quite a jerk.
No need to wait for explainations, I have none. Forgive me. Want a new one?

Isnin, Oktober 06, 2003

Ha ha hurpmmhh...Budak Lemang dah clash.
Mula2 dia nak citer tuh, dia sms aku to call him coz he has got something that happened to him yg dia rasa aku patut tahu. Aku pun dah lama tak sedap hati. *Memang mcm tu lah aku dgn dia, aku can sense something is not going well for him, walaupun dia jauh and I would call. Call it anything you want but it's not jodoh. We're best friends, tu jek.* So I called. The first thing aku perasan suare dia, sebak. Aku pun, dgn penuh keyakinan... "Dol, kenapa suara kau macam org putus cinta nih?" Dia gelak je aku dah tau, ramalan ku benar belaka. Well...tak kisah aa Dol, awek ko tu bukan baik sgt. Aku bangga dgn tindakan kau!
If anybody yg baca ni pikir, wahh...dah clash so nak suruh aku masuk jarum, think again. Coz...ha ha i know something but I aint telling!!!

To my best friend Dol who will never get to read this, Good Luck beb! See you in KL nanti (yes, dia nak keje kat KL muahahaha) Pau Dol!!! And ppl, dia dah ada friendster account (courtesy of me, of course) and rajin2 la sesiapa nak add dia ek? Kesian kawan dia baru 3 org. Name dia dlm tu Ashadi.

Smlm...opps...pagi tadi, lepas aku layan luahan perasaan Dol, aku online jap. Tak semena2 Mr. Firdee Aqasha (DIDI!! ha ha ha) ajak aku join geng dia chatting. Wahhh...teruk kena buli but it was fun. *Didi, Syaf and Fauzani, nanti la korg...rematch plz!* Thanks Aqasha...wa blanja lu mkn aa nanti! Umie tinggal...ha ha

Ahad, Oktober 05, 2003

Tak aci. Naem letak lagu Teacher's Pet. Aku suke lagu nih. Satu lagi lagu sebagai sumber inspirasi. Ha ha...to my love, thanks. May you be the Warisan Lelaki Terakhir or something. Lelaki tulen ek? ha ha i will settle for nothing less than 100% tulenness!!!

Warisan Wanita Terakhir
Bila kita dalam salam perpisahan
Namun aku tetap bersamamu
Ku rasa bagai satu sentuhan
Dalam mimpi ku terbayang wajahmu

Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu

Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi

( korus )
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir

Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu

Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi

( korus )
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir

Hati sucimu ingin ku miliki
Hanya satu yang ku pinta... Kasih...
Kau warisan wanita ynag terakhir
Kau warisan wanita... Yang terakhir...
Hari tuh chat with Azman Abu Hassan. Wahhh...seronok sungguh. Had a blast chatting with him and Min. Thank you Abg Man sbb rajin layan two giggly star-struck girls. *owhhh...Ako is hot, aint he, Min? Anuar Zain pun hottie gak. Cannot make up my mind. Owhhhh* Anyway, he offered to teach me all about sound designing if i am interested. The truth is, i am VERY interested but aku pikir pulak what my family would say. Abang Man kata it's okay that aku takde degree in sound designing or engineering or stuffs coz dia pun degree in management. As long as aku interested, tak mudah kecil hati and tak kisah work at odd hours. Oh btw sound designing is like buat the sound of a movie, all the dubbing and kesan2 bunyi whatsoever. menarik? oh well, aku rasa menarik la drpd kena mengadap jurnal or akaun2 but...tgk dulu, tgk dulu.
As for the requirements Abang Man mentioned, berminat...(well of course! Aku rasa kalau aku nak kena buat akaun pun aku akan usaha sedaya upaya make it in the entertainment industry. Dulu pernah berangan nak jadi sound engineer but, hell...aku tatau apa jadi to that cita2) Tak kisah work at odd hours (that's me, I am alive at odd hours. Tapi tu utk jangka masa terdekat, kalo dah kawen kang mana leh buat cam tu lagi. So how? Bak kata Dyla, if I wanna try for before aku beranak pinak apa salahnya...or, kawen dgn org same industry? Hmmm, *AKO*?) Tak mudah kecil hati...aku pun tatau la tahap kecil hati aku cemana. Tapi kalo aku dah betul2 nak buat menda tuh kena redha n tabah je lah.

Cakap pasal kecil hati...someone is kecik hati with me. Dia tak cakap, but i can tell. Someone actually reads this blog ey? Mama Mia...that's good. I have been wondering if he reads this. Someone tak cakap pun dia baca but since he's pissed off with me, then I supposed he does. Perhaps you just realize that I am made up flesh n blood n surprise, surprise...I have feelings too, bebeh.
Ok...let's put my feelings into perspective. This is my blog and I am entitled to write about MY feelings and i am entitled to be selfish. Only here. In my space. I am completely honored when u talk to me about her. Being the first one to know (if that's the truth la) and all...I haven't thanked you for that. But I am not all that proud when you compare me to her. All the stuffs u said about her not being the same like me, about time u realize that we are two different ppl and are not to be compared. She wouldn't like it, and neither would I. It irks me that u only see me in that way now (i dunno if u felt the same way before coz u never said it so i assumed its only now u realize me for what i am).
And my dear someone, when u decided to couple with her, you didn't ask my opinion so as to what extend u want to continue ur relationship, why do u need my opinion suddenly? Ask urself why.
Anyway, I come to realize that you'll only see me as perhaps, a friend, a good friend and nothing else. Keep it that way...I am moving on, life is doing just fine right now. Forgive me for hurting ur feelings if I did. It's for your own good. No change that, for our own good. Why is that so? Hmmm...hurmpphh...go figure. Some things are better left unspoken.

Ppl, just watched Glitter on HBO. Mariah sucks in acting. Anyhow, the ending...the BF died. Awek tu sedih coz belum sempat meluah rasa yg benerrr...so I'm telling you ppl how much I love you guys for being my friend and for reading this blog coz this is a great way to let things out of my chest! Luv y'all!!! Muahhh muahhh...
While I am at this...I also love Anuar Zain, Ako Mustapha, Zul Huzaimy Marzuki...bla, bla, bla......and the list goes on. What can I say...ha ha ha Yes, yes...love *you* too!!!

Jumaat, Oktober 03, 2003

Muhaizad Mustapha



fuhhh...sorg je bang? bleh i teman? damn...damn...hot la this guy!!! panasss....


Khamis, Oktober 02, 2003

'LAYAR TANCHAP-4' di pepper leaf cafe damansara perdana pada 8 okt, jam 8 mlm.

aku dpt msg ni dari zul @ ZHM (ehemm...ehemm...) Tu je info aku ada. That and the fact that dia akan berlakon (Aku sent SMS, "awak berlakon ke?". Dan dia jawab, "Ye") ha ha jom sape nak ikot? Free kot...jom aa!!!




Menjadi Seorang Dian Sastro & Nicholas Saputra
Remin Noir mewawancara dua bintang muda dari Indonesia.
by Remin Noir (Teks & Foto)
11-09-2003


Dian Sastrowardoyo dan Nicholas Saputra, memang menjadi sebuah fenomena dalam perkembangan industri seni lakon Indonesia. Kedua-dua mereka, mencipta tarif fenomenal yang tersendiri di saat kebangkitan para karyawan baru di Indonesia. Kebangkitan mereka seiring dengan kebangkitan gelombang baru para pengkarya generasi baru sinema Indonesia yang memang mendambakan satu kebangkitan semula disebalik kemunduran pergerakannya pada abad yang lepas. Siapa yang tidak kenal pada sosok pemeran tokoh Cinta dan Rangga yang dimainkan mereka di dalam filem box office Indonesia iaitu ‘Ada Apa Dengan Cinta’.

Sempena menjayakan acara ‘Poems for the World’ di Putra World Trade Centre baru-baru ini, kedua mereka dijemput untuk mendeklamasikan puisi yang bertemakan keamanan. Walau padat dengan jadual latihan yang ketat, kedua-dua mereka rela meluangkan masa bersama untuk diwawancara oleh penulis bebas Kakiseni, Remin Noir.

Dian tampil tenang dan segar bersama antusias tinggi untuk memberikan sebuah persembahan yang terbaik nanti. Tutur bicaranya lembut dan manja sambil merefleksikan daya pemikiran yang tajam dan terbuka. Pengagum berat falsafah seni dan tidak heran jika beliau tampil yakin dengan perasaan penuh percaya diri kepada kerjaya pilihannya. Berbeda pula ceritanya dengan Nicholas yang pendiam dan enigmatik. Bicaranya santai dan singkat tetapi sarat dengan informasi yang tepat. Walau kesihatan jasmaninya agak mengganggu, beliau tetap bersemangat tinggi untuk menjayakan acara ini. Ikuti obrolan kami bertiga dalam membicarakan isu-isu terkini kedua-dua mereka sambil secara tak sengaja turut melewati isu tokoh penyajak idola mereka iaitu Chairil Anwar.

Remin: Hello dan pakabar? Pertama saya ingin mengucapkan tahniah diatas kejayaan IP (indeks prestasi) kamu semester lepas ... 3.79 kan pointernya, tahniah sekali lagi.

Dian: Wah, kok kamu tahu sih? Hihi. Makasih ya. Ya benar IP saya yang lepas itu 3.79. Wah rasanya bangga sekali. Bangga banget! Soalnya aku nggak pernah bisa punya nilai setinggi itu. Gila lho, semester lepas aja saya ambil sembilan subjek, dapat 7 A dan 2 B gitu. Makasih sekali lagi ya.

R: Di kampus UI (Universitas Indonesia) dulu yang pertama kamu di dalam fakultas hukum, jadi terus sekarang udah pada pindah di fakultas filsafat. Jadi gimana sih corak pembelajaran kamu yang di fakultas sekarang ini?

D: Corak pembelajarannya lebih kayak ... apa kamu pernah nonton filem Dead Poet Society? Itu benar-benar hampir semua kelasnya kayak gitu. Jadi kita tu semuanya ada discussion, basically common sense segala macam itu. Menarik sekali bagi saya jika dijalanin suasana kayak gitu ketimbang jurusan hukum dahulu.

R: Kalau bicara soal filsafat itukan luas sekali. Jadi menurut kamu filsafat mana yang menjadi pilihan di dalam jurusan yang kamu pelajari ini?

D: Saya tuh senang sekali sama filsafat seni.Seni tu aku fikir di dalam rumpun estetika ya, iaitu keindahan. Itu lumayan. Bagi saya sekarang filsafat estetika itu udah jadi kelas favorite saya. Mungkin yang membuat aku suka tuh kerana kerjaya aku yang sekarang itu cenderung dekat sama seni estetika. Kalau diikutkan banyak jenisan filsafat yang saya pelajari, itu kayak sejarah filsafat Yunani, sejarah peradaban moderen, sejarah pemikiran moderen, sejarah filsafat Jawa, sejarah filsafat Cina dan sejarah filsafat India itu jugak menarik lho.

R: Jadi pada sekarang udah ngetop, gimana sih kamu menimbang tawaran yang datang. Kononnya kamu benar-benar memilih karekter yang ingin dimainkan di layar lebar. Apakah kamu menggariskan kriteria tertentu dalam menerima tawaran berlakon?

D: Kalau misalan saya sih, nggak terlalu banyak memilih sebenarnya. Mungkin karena nggak banyak pilihan ya! Iya soalnya kan sedikit tawaran main di perfileman Indonesia sekarang. Jadi sebenarnya hampir kesemua wataknya yang ditawarin itu, saya pada ngomong aja gimana karekternya yang saya pengen main. Cuma paling utama tuh saya lebih memilih untuk main di dalam filem-filem yang punya mesej penting yang ingin disampaikan kepada penonton .Asalkan mesej dan perannya nggak terlalu deep atau terlalu klise.

R: Ironi sekali ya kerana menurut saya, peran Daya dan keseluruhan pemain di dalam filem Pasir Berbisik punya mesej yang memang deep.

D: (ketawa) Iya sih mungkin deep kayak gitu aja. Maksud saya tu bukan terlalu dalam yang abstrak gitu lho. Tetapi kalau kamu sadar, filem ‘Ada Apa Dengan Cinta’ itu juga deep lho mesejnya kan? Walaupun dibalut dengan sosok intian yang pop, tetapi kan pengertian mesejnya penting buat penonton supaya membaca. Jadi makanya disini saya nggak mau main filem cinta yang klise. Pada malas saya, karena buang energi saja.

(saya tertawa)

R: Terus apa aja filem favorite kamu sekarang?

D: Filem favorite saya yang sekarang itu pasti ‘Dead Poet Society’. Menurutku mesejnya emang deep dan perlu sekali diserap oleh penonton. Terus ‘Good Will Hunting’ dan ini dong, apa filemnya ‘Almost Famous’. Pada teringat aku yang mungkin kerjaya kayak kamu tu pasti hampir serupa ama sutradaranya Cameron Crowe kan?

(saya hanya senyum tersipu menahan malu)

Bagi saya, Cameron Crowe tu emang agak idealis ya, cuman dalam filem itu dia pintar membalut dengan kemasan bersama warna yang komersil. Jadi sebenarnya mesej filem itu menceritakan tentang the real life and not so real life of a rock band with a journalist. Kayak kamu lho! Katanya kamu kan pernah ngikut tur dan mewawancara Dewa dan Padi semua. Pasti mirip ya pengalamannya sama alter ego Cameron Crowe di dalam filem itu bukan? Cerita dong pengalamannya, pasti pernah ketemu sama cewek-cewek groupies.

R: Ya lumayan juga sih pengalaman aku. Pengalamannya hanya mirip 40% sahaja di dalam filem itu. Ok, sebetulnya dulu sebelum jadi pelakon kamu pengen jadi penulis dan sutradara. Malah sebelum ditawarkan jadi pelakon kamu hanya pengen bikin kerja kru aja. Jadi terus gimana transformsi cita-cita dari yang pertama dahulu sampai yang sekarang?

D: Karena sebenarnya aku kan masih mau berubah terus nih. Paling tidak minggu depan aku mau lagi kerjaya baru. Intinya saya banyak banget berubah sekarang. Sebenarnya saya langsung binggung jawabnya. Jadi sekarang itu saya bilang kalau saya pengen menulis mungkin karena saat ini saya lagi banyangin yang saya jadi penulis. Pasti berubah-ubahlah. Kayaknya sih, saya pengen banget jadi penulis kerna saya ingin menulis sesuatu yang saya gemari. Menjadi penulis pada maksud saya itu bukan terbatas kepada satu media sahaja ya, pengennya yang kayak book author begitu. Apanya nggak dikasi limitation. Saya punya kolum di majalah ‘Gadis’ ya, cuma antara mungkin lama-kelamaan saya lebih tertarik menulis kepada hal-hal yang saya fikirkan sendiri bukan sama subjek-subjek yang mereka kasi. Jadi akhirnya saya bilang, kalau saya tetap di sini saya pasti membiarkan fikiran saya tidak berkembang. Jadi mendingan saya mahu tulis sendiri aja, tetapi ternyata itu juga belum sempat kejadiannya hihi…

R: Terus, siapa sahaja penulis Indonesia favorite kamu kini?

D: Pertama itu, Ayu Utami. Bukunya yang judul Saman dan Larung itu. Gila lho, bacanya satu buku itu satu setengah jam. Nggak bisa berhenti tuh. Terus saya nyambung aja ke buku yang keduanya. Kemudian Pramoedya Ananta Toer dan terus D.N Hadini(Pada sebuah Kapal, Namaku Hiroko & Keberangkatan) kemudian, oh ini dong… Putri Duyung yang Mendamba karya Romo Mangun. Ahhh…itu yang bikin gue masuk tuh. Nama penuhnya E.B Mangun Wijaya dan panggilan nama penanya itu Romo Mangun. Kalau bicara buku luar, saya masih belum selesai baca buku ‘The Conversation With God’. Buku itu agak berat untuk difahami dan ambil masa yang lama juga buat saya menyelesaikannya.

(disaat ini Nicholas mula datang berbicara bersama-sama seraya selesai latihannya di belakang pentas)

R: Saya terbaca di situs Kompas yang kamu berdua baru sahaja selesai menghadiri acara pelancaran semula buku ‘Aku’(satu novel yang dibaca watak Rangga di dalam filem A2DC) hasil nukilan Sjuman Djaya di Pondok Indah, Jakarta Selatan minggu lepas. Katanya kamu berdua itu mendeklamasikan puisi daripada buku itu?

Nicholas: Yang sebenarnya buku itu bukan sepenuhnya buku puisi sih. Sebenarnya buku itu adalah kumpulan penulisan skenario(screenplay) filem, tetapi disisipkan bersama puisinya Chairil Anwar. Buku skenario itupun bukan director treatment yang final. Itu lebih ke apa yang ada di otak sang sutradaranya yang dituangkan secara sastra begitu ya. Jadi kita selalu menganggapkan yang buku itu adalah buku sastra padahal ianya adalah buku skenario.

D: Saya sih sebenarnya kenal sama buku itu ketika kita semua shooting filem A2DC itu. Pertama kali baca itu buku, terus aja jatuh cinta. Saya senang sekali sama contents buku itu kerna membaca buku itu kayak nonton filem aja kok.

R: Makanya Sjuman Djaya itu adalah seorang sutradara filem?

N: Ia emang dia seorang director. Pada saya dia adalah seorang director yang sangat baik dan sangat hebat pada akhir 70’an dan awal 80’an dulu. Hasil skenarionya semua, dia yang tulis sendiri. Makanya buku ‘Aku’ itu adalah hasil penulisan skenario untuk filem biografi Chairil Anwar begitu. Apa kamu tahu kenal nggak Aksan Sjuman, mantan pemain drum Dewa 19 dulu, ya Sjuman Djaya itu bapaknya. Di dalam buku itu terkandung sejarah hidup Chairil dari awal sampailah dia mati. Saya sebenarnya senang dan suka sekali sama sajak-sajaknya Chairil kerana dia itu kan terkenal sebagai pelopor angkatan 45. Jadi puisi-puisinya itu memang punya perbedaan yang nyata pada zamannya dahulu. Pada saya hasil puisi karya Chairil sarat dengan perasaan berontak dan nggak ikuti aturan-aturan telah sedia ada dahulu. Dia itu secara jujur mengekspresikan apa saja yang dia rasakan tanpa perlu mengikut perbatasan. Itu bagi saya punya arti yang sangat dalam!

(saat ini Dian mula mengundurkan diri sebentar kerana mahu menyambung sessi latihannya pula)

R: Sekarang itu kamu baru selesai berlakon filem Biola Tak Berdawai. Ceritakan sedikit perihal karekter yang kamu mainkan itu dan terus peran yang bagaimana pula menjadi pilihan kamu selanjutnya?

N: Iya, didalam filem saya yang kemaren itu, ia menuntut saya bisa bermain biola. Jadi saya harus menjalanin latihan bermain biola juga walau saya belum pernah main. Tetapi lumayanlah kerna hasil dari latihan itu saya bisa kenal dan hafal beberapa nada dan kord untuk dimainkan. Yang penting, kelihatan di kamera dan filemnya itu real ya! Terus untuk peran yang selanjutnya, saya semestinya mahu karekter yang berbeda selain kayak Rangga dan Bisma(Biola Tak Berdawai). Utamanya saya tidak ingin mematok jenisan karekter-karekter peran saya yang ada. Nanti khuatir, pada sempit pula fikiran saya. Saya mahu menerima karekter apa pun asal, treatment dari directornya benar-benar serius. Dan karekter itu walaupun kecil atau sedikit tetapi treatmentnya tetap serius. Pentingnya bukan karekter yang klise. Buang waktu kerana yang pertama itu saya letakkan kuliah sebagai prioritas, Makanya kerjaya saya di bidang lakonan itu pun hanya sekadar memenuhi waktu liburan kuliah saya. Kayaknya sekarang lagi liburan, udah dua bulan dan mingu depan harus kembali jalanin kuliah semester baru.

R: Apa sahaja filem favorite kamu sekarang ini?

N: Sebenarnya lumanyan banyak sih, Tetapi kita pada ngomong yang personal ya. Apa pertama sekali itu, saya suka sama filem ‘Life Is Beautiful’ lakonan Roberto Benigni. Keduanya ‘Chicago’ filem muzikal lakonan Rene Zellweger ama Catherine Zeta Jones. Terus apa lagi ya, Oh ya filem ‘Yu Tu Mama Tambien’, keren sekali lho filem itu! Dan terakhir filem ‘Full Metal Jacket’ untuk filem perangnya.

R: Lalu sekarang ini apa aja kegiatan terbaru kamu berdua?

N: Oh nanti ada sama Dian juga, apa kita bakal main di dalam sebuah teater muzikal di Jakarta. Judulnya ‘Bawang Putih, Bawang Merah’ dan bakal diadakan di Jakarta Convention Centre pada 17 September depan. Naskhah ini sebenarnya adalah cerita dongeng buat anak-anak. Dongeng folktales Indonesia yang klasik begitu.

D: Ada ramai lagi sebenarnya sih. Apanya si Jecko(kareographer tarian untuk acara Poems For The World) turut ngikut. Ada Rachel Maryam Saidina terus lagi ada Alex Komang dan ramai lagilah. Tapi saya juga punya peranan kecil di dalam filem ‘Puteri Gunung Ledang’ nanti. Sekadar cameo roles sahaja. Aku nyebutnya hanya satu line dialog aja hihi. Malah ada juga nanti selesai acara malam ini, saya harus ke Bangkok. Mahu selesaikan shooting komersil Lux yang terbaru.

R: Bagaimana rasanya transisi kamu dari mula berlakon di layar lebar hingga terus ke teater pula. Saya pasti antisipasi dan methodnya berbeda bagi kamu berdua?

N: Ya mungkin saya pengen tahu aja gimana rasanya bermain emosi dan peran di depan audiences yang hidup. Garis perbedaannya mungkin di layar lebar kita berdepan sama kamera, makanya untuk teater ini saya hanya pengen tahu bagaimana pengalaman dan rasanya berdepan dengan audience yang ramai.

D: Untuk aku tu beda banget. Harus banyak benda yang perlu saya pelajarin. Susah juga deh pokoknya. Tapi nggak apa-apa, jadi bisa belajar banyak lagi. Buat aku itu, ini lakonan teater yang pertama. Saya harus nyanyi dan menari segala macam. Takut juga sih.

R: Ok deh, terima kasih ya kerna sudi meluangkan waktu diwawancara bersama saya. Saya mengucapkan selamat buat kamu berdua dalam menjalanin hidup dan kerja sebagai penuntut dan juga pelakon. Good luck juga buat acara malam ini.

N: Ya, sama-sama. Thank you.

D: Ya, saya juga sama. Makanya kamu harus nonton deklamasi kami malam ini ya!
Found this in friendster, a testimonial from a guy to his girlfriend. I think he's really sweet, would you ppl agree? Not to mention the guy looks hot so that add up to the sweetness factor ha ha



Maybe god wants us to meet a few wrong people b4 meeting the right 1,so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. When the door of happiness closes,another opens, but often time we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the kind than you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've been missing until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all u'r love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a LIFETIME to forget someone. Don't go for looks;they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile b'coz it takes only a smile to make a darkday seem bright. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from u'r dreams and hug them for real! Dream what u wanna dream, go where u wanna go, be what u wanna be, bcoz u have only one life and one chance to do all the things u wanna do. May u have enough happiness to make u sweet, enough trials to make u strong, enough sorrow to keep u human, enough hope to make u happy. Always put u'rself in other's shoes, if u feel that it hurts u, it probably hurts the other person too..... True love burns the brightest but the brightest flames leave the deepest scars. Love isn't about finding the perfect person, about seeing an imperfect person perfectly. Loving someone is giving that someone the power to hurt you .You dun love a woman because she's beautiful, She's beautiful because you love her. The day i stop loving you is the day i drop a tear into the sea and find it.....

Was talking to someone today. He's having trouble with his gal. Poor guy. Should have gotten to know her before you plunge urself into that relationship. Anyway...best of luck, Hope you'll make it thru.

Anyway...I just feel like I need to get this out of my chest. Why is it that now u'r having probs, u'r unhappy, suddenly u realize my existance and goes on talking bout how I affected you, how 'understanding' I was...have you ever think of me when ur happy? Aku bukan cemburu, jauh lagi nak marah coz any feelings I ever had for you dah mati dan berlalu, but I'm just questioning ur treatment to me and to what u call friendship. I am ur friend for always...but are you my friend? A point to ponder.
There. It's all out. Time to get some sleep.


March 2017 - 'Ada Apa Dengan Jogja?' (Part 2.5)

Honestly tho, I have nothing much to say about the show, except what everyone would already know...It was AH-MAY-ZINGGGG!!! *fangirling mod...