Ahad, Mei 30, 2004

Staying Alive, y'all...



I boogied again today, this time with Mak. Ye ye ye! I knew I wanted so badly to watch S4turd4y Night F3v3r, but twice is like...seronok nye!

We went straight after Kak Anna's wedding (btw, she looked beautiful! best nya kawen...owh, that's a different story all together) in our best baju tradisi. No time to change, show's at 3. Felt so overdressed coz everyone was in casual wear. Lantak lah!

Show was, great. Best. Sangat.

And Mak bought me the Original Cast recording CD. Alltogether now sing with me, "Stayin' alive, stayin alive' Ah ha ha ha Stayin' Aliiiiiiive!!"

That pic above, ladies and gents, is the guy who played T0ny M4n3r0, also known as the guy who took my breath away today. He smiled, and my insides turned to jelly. Haha...nasib baik tak hilang teros keupayaan berbicara. So we talked a bit, got his autograph and...I think I am turning into a autograph-junkie psycho-maniac. Hahaha...but he was so ^*&^^&$%# cute! Not to mention sexy too!

Why does he have to go back to New Zealand tonight? *sedih*

"I wanna put on, my my my my my boogie shoes, just to boogie with you!"

Sabtu, Mei 29, 2004

T4nch4p v12

Banyak siak budak uni10 dtg. 5 cars kot? 2 with Aim and frends, 1 with Min and frends, 1 hajar and frends, another 1 with Nana and frends. And then mine, but aku punya tak kira coz I was alone. Dyla pun ada juge.

It was raining a bit went we arrived. Cepat2 carik tempat duduk sebelum majlis bermula, kang basah pule, cair mekap I. Ahaks. Aku sampai agak awal since janjinya dengan Min, nak gerak dari rumah jam 8.30 and makan2 dulu tapi...well, janji diana. Haha. We watched people doing some soundchecks, I called out to Osh, and he said...

"Awak, champion awak belum sampai laaa..." champion AKU??! Hahaha... He meant Zul. Called my champion *ehem*, katanya bakal datang sebentar lagi. *senyum*

The show itself, many new people are doing their acts, that's good. Moose and his friends performed too, the applause they received...waah, you'd think they have made it big already seh. I can imagine it already, girls screaming their names, autograph signing, cameras clicking...but that's a different story all together. Zul came but didn't perform. Aku frustasi.

They showed teasers for 'D4Y4NG' yesterday. If you want to read about the movies, here's some articles from B3rit4 H4ri4n and Utus4n. There's so much hoo-haa tentang F4sH4 S4ndh4 yang tak jadi berlakon sebagai D4y4ng. Bukan nak tulis pasal movie tu sendiri. Hape2 je lah.

Cik Nasuha, Imri pun ada semalam. Ngehehehe.
Zul wore a green baju melayu with samping, mcm pakaian dia waktu launching 'D4Y4NG'. Siapa yang tengok semalam, can you please verify that he was indeed looking very good? Kang aku je cakap, macam bias plak.

Apapun, aku sudah terkantoi oleh beberapa orang. Dah tak bulih lari. Moose ar nih yang bersalah. Hampeh. Haha...it was nice meeting them though. Sempat lepak borak2 sambil bersandar2 di Tiara ku, nasib baik dah cuci itu siang. Hahaha. Well, can I still be a spy now that they know? Mampu kah aku? Isk isk...

Next month's T4nch4p, I might not be able to go. Might be in Melaka untuk makan ikan bakar. Ngehehehe...

btw, aku suke lagu yang Kia AFI nyanyi tu. Suke, suke...

Rabu, Mei 26, 2004

Ahaaa yeahhh! Ahaaa yeahhh!

Hahaha...thanks kawan2 atas pradengarnya. Aku nak komen sikit. Kalau 07des, sangat ketara unsur2 kejiwangan dalam lagu2 ciptaan 3r0ss ku, kali nih pula macam, cinta yang tak kesampaian pula. Bersesuaian dengan majlis lah agaknya? Semenjak ditinggalkan kekasih ni katakan...hehehhehe...and I love these 3 songs that I've heard! Best best!
3r0$$ tanpa A$+r1d adalah lebih brilliant! :D

Siapa Nasuha?
Was driving to class around 1.30 when Zul called. Dia nak ajak aku ke majlis pelancaran filem 'D4Y4NG' nya. Alamak, kelas 2-4 pulak, majlis pukul 3. So aku nekad untuk pergi juga, walau sedikit terlewat. Nak ponteng tak dapek la, unless bersedia nak mampos. Kelas wanfad tuh. Pergh tak berani.

Lepas dia call, aku tengok balik apa aku pakai. Pakaian bertema kan kelas gitu. Pakaian kuliah, ala2 comot juga lah. Haha...naseb ar, lipstik pun lupe nak pakai, muka pun tepek bedak bayi jek. Selalunya aku kan...ahaha you know me! Good thing I left a lot of shoes in my car. Takde lah pakai selipar W4ts0n RM5.90 je ke Cyb3rv13w L0dge.

Kat kelas, cilok lipstik Faie :p And of all days, wanfad wants to extend the class sampai 4.30. Adeh, aku ketelatan nih! Tak senang duduk aku dibuatnya. And when I was contemplating how to leave the class early unnoticed, she asked me a question. Tau jygak nama aku rupanya wanita itu. Hahaha...so much for leaving, duduk jugak la sampai selesai. Kalo blah sure kantoi punya.

So, sampai lah aku dan Shamam di resort itu around 5. Gile babeng cun la tempat tuh, rasa cam transported to pulau peranginan kat mana jek. Serious terpana seketika! Orang pun dressing ala2 cam purbawara, kebaya2 beranika rona dan warna. Yang aku dgn Shamam? Heh. Agaknya sebab tu kot orang pandang2? *perasan*

Call2 Encik Zul tak dapat. Nasib baik jumpa Osh yang sedang berbual dengan 4ndy dan warga2 T4nch4p lain. Dia tunjuk kan di mana Zul sedang dalam press conference. Aku dan Shamam menyamar sementara sebagai wartawan, sorang dari Bulletin Un1t3n, sorg dari Warkah MMu. Ehehehhh...

Dan setelah selesai press cons, kami pon berdiri2 diluar sambil di perkenalkan kepada mereka yang terlibat dengan filem itu oleh Encik Zul. Yang konpius tuh...dia dengan pede mengenalkan Shamam sebagai 'NASUHA'. Apakah jadahnya??! Hahahha. Tak pasal2 Cik Shamam dapat nama glemer gitu.

Cik Raudha called me, I let her talk to her fave actor. Tort. Distorted ey sis? Hehehe... seronok nya dia!!!

Left that resort, mkn kat streetmall. Saw Zul again since the whole casts and crews dined kat mall tuh gak. Restoren lain la. Tak standard la kan kalo diorg mkn kat kedai nasi ayam tuh jek. Ehehh...

Btw, Zul kan, sangat segak berbaju melayu. Diulang suara, SANGAT segak. hehehe

Aku dan Shamam dapat door gift, berupa keychain berbentuk lembing. Tajam lagi. :p

Thanks Zul.

Selasa, Mei 25, 2004



Buat Cik Peon,

Foto ini ada juga di fri3ndst3r dan mysp4c3 saya. Di ambil waktu menyambut Ulang tahun beramai2 dengan Ika (tengah) dan Lisa (kanan) di Coffee Bean, Mont Kiara pada 14 Mei. Kira, latest la gak ni.



Ni pula selepas menonton s4turd4y n1+3 f3v3r. Itu Gerard @ Aman. Look at the J0hn Tr4v0lt4's pose. haha...

Lagi, insyaAllah kalau ada, saya uploadkan.

Sahabat yang merinduimu,
Farina.

Ada apa dengan presentation?

I have finished my final presentation in Uniten, hopefully. Tadi there was this guy from this other group who got his gal to take pics of him during presentation. Kenang-kenangan gitu. Dan tiba2 aku teringat, aku tak pernah pun ambil gambar masa presentation. haha...takpe ar, esok luse aku posing je mcm tengah present, pas tuh amik ar gambar segulung dua pon kan. bawak camcorder ke. ehehkks...

Semalam presentation SA. Buat warga2 uniten yang bakal belajar dgn wanfad, dia memang mengerikan. Sangat. Hehh...1 jam group aku kena grill kat depan. Masak rentung. Tapi orang lain yang tengok lak cuak. Yang kitorang kat depan ni lagi fikir, adeh sakitnya berdiri lama-lama, dah la pakai high heels!

Apa-apa pun...Good Luck la dengan dia!

Ahad, Mei 23, 2004

:: Met Ultah! ::

A big shout out to my good friend who's celebrating his 22nd birthday today! Jom nyanyi, rakan-rakan...



Allah selamatkan kamuuuuu.... (jeng, je, jeng)
Allah selamatkan kamuuuuuuuuu... (jeng, je, jeng)
Allah selematkan Encik Azrul Reza,
Allah selamatkan kamuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!

*clap*clap*

Haha...so what if he feels like I took a mic and announced to the world that it's his birthday. It's not every single day a great guy turns 22, so enjoy.
Earlier last evening, went to Sunway Pyramid to 'jalan-jalan cari makan' with Ika and Fai. The waiter at Pizza Hut was one of the friendliest I've met, or was it because he and Fai shares the same name? hehe. Had a good conversation about guys, relationships and girls (hey, when girls meet, they do tend to discuss other girls a lot, you know. Sometimes, that's called bitching. Some other times, it's just called 'membincangkan isu semasa').

Thanks ladies for you presents...hehey, my birthday has not ended. I am still open for hadiah. Don't shy-shy. Ahakkss.

A friend said I received presents because a lot of people knows me. How come each time he says things like that, I hear it as an insult? Is it me, is it his tone, or we just lack of communication skills to transmit and receive data correctly? Haha...
Anyway, it's not the gifts that counts. It's the thoughts. And, I was partly responsible for reminding people of my previous birthday. Had the audacity to sms people, letting them know the day is coming up. Hahaha...I did!

It's something like Lissa's Pakcik said, "yg penting dpt apa aku nk, drpd dpt crap". Heh, something like that la.

And it's not the quantity of friends I have that counts. It's the quality. Hehehe...kawan-kawan aku kualiti emas punye, kira dah tahap dewa dah diorang nih. Haha!

Anyway, back to Sunway...was still dining when I saw a familiar face among the crowd walking outside of Pizza Hut. Maka aku berlari dan teruskan bernyanyi mengejar dia, tarik tangan dia, and teros pelok. Jeng jeng jeng...siapakah insan itu? Khairunnisa Syazwana!!! (Note: Untuk warga Seri Puteri budiman sahaja. Harap Maklum. Ngehehehe) Gile rindu siak kat dia! Still remember our Teratai days (Hanya warga Teratai je yang mengerti penderitaan warga Teratai. Giler, sampai sekarang aku sedih kenang balik tahun tuh. Damn bibs.) Aku dah dapat dah number Nisa. So frends, since ramai nak balik dah nih, jom buat small gath (small jek, besar2 aku malas) kat Sg. Congkak? (Fave spot aku, haha) JOMMM!!! Sila hebahkan kat rakan-rakan ye.

Malam tadi, watched 'Lorong Neraka' with Ili, Sor, Kak Im, Des and Retno. Brought Mak along too. She enjoyed it tremendously! Then went makan2 at Kampung Baru (akhirnya, aku cuci kereta, it's been almost 1 month tak cuci wooo). Then bawak Mak pusing2 KL. She cannot believe how alive KL is at that wee hours in the morning. Haha...she was like, Eh, apa tuh? Eh...diorang nak buat apa nih? Eh, look at that! Wow, ramainya! and so on, so on. Heheh...takpe lah Mak, janji happy.

Sekarang, aku nak buat assignment. Twang twang twanggg...

Jumaat, Mei 21, 2004

Semua Tentang Dollah

Aku pasti rakan2 sheilagankster ku semua sering menerima panggilan2 tatkala artis Ind0n3si4 nak bertandang ke negara kita neh. Panggilan2 insan2 yang hendak mendapatkan maklumat. Kadang2 kenal, kadang2 tidak. Kadang2 aku pelik, mana dapat number aku nih? Nama orang yang call tu pun aku tak pernah dengar. Tapi macam mana cara dia cakap, mcm kenal sangat aku? haha...kawan instant?

Apapun, I received a call yesterday. Tanya bile Dollah dkk nak datang. Ntah, aku pun tak tahu. "Tak jadi kot?", kataku. "Kenapa tak jadi?", tanyanya. "Ntah.", jawabku. Hahah...andai sesiapa yang call semalam membaca blog ini, I didn't get your name. Siapa ye? Sampai sekarang aku dalam tanda tanya. Hmmm...takpe lah.

Aku frust nih Dollah tak jadi datang.
Sesungguhnya bukan niat di hati hendak memencilkan diri dengan tidak mengupdate blog...adapun kiranya, hamba cam agak2 busy gitu. Kalau tak blog nih dah jadi blog cirit dengan updates yang melampau laju. Har har har!!

Had a tahlil last weekend untuk Arwah Uncle in Kampung Baru. It's been a year without him. I think the boys are doing fine, only the youngest, Azlan, is asking for him. Luruh jiwa aku bile dengar he says "Kak Ngah, dulu masa Abah belum mati...". Apa yang dia faham kan. He's still so young. Sob, sob...Anyway, life goes on.

Monday, busy finishing assignment SA.

Tuesday, I boogie woogied at Istana Budaya. It's 'S4turd4y N1t3 F3v3r' on a wednesday nite! haha...somebody gave me a couple of tics for my birthday present. Each is worth RM227 ok! I took Gerard along, by the end of the night he was doing the 'cucuk langit' dance. Ngehehe...very good show. And do you guys know, kalau u arrive 30 minutes before the show, the tics will only cost you RM77, for any vacant seats? Even the 227 ones, or 257 ones (harga weekend). Still got time to go catch it. Worth every single cents!

"Staying alive, staying alive, ha ha ha ha staying aliveeeeee!!!!"

Wednesday, submitted SA's assignment. Tebal macam buku teks! Tapi, appendix la tebal. heheh...biase lah tuh. Kerja nya 20 page jek.

Nothing else then. Oh ye...pengumuman!



L4y4r T4nch4p... what is it?... where?... when?...

Find out at the next one.

L4y4r T4nch4p v12
when : 28th May, 2004
where: Coffee Hut (T4nch4p C3ntr4l), Taman Tun Dr Ismail (next to R4st4)
time : 9.00pm/after isya'
dress code:
di hari raya...
terkenang daku kepada si dia...
kampungku indah nun jauh di sana...
ayah serta bondaku...


the ambience is free...but the food and drinks aren't...it's only fair, right?
be there...


So, be there.

Sabtu, Mei 15, 2004

Ajari aku 'tuk jadi P3J4NT4N T4NGGUH...

P3j4nt4n, p3j4nt4n t4ngguh,
Itu yang ku harap ada padaku,
Agar, agar diriku,
Bisa melumpuhkan tingkah liarmu,

Jgn, jgn siakan,
Kehadiranku pd mimpimu,
Kerana hanya lewat mimpi,
Ku bisa menjamahmu juga memilikimu,

Ajari aku 'tuk jadi p3j4nt4n t4ngguh,
Mungkin terlalu lama aku t'lah bersembunyi,
Menatap matahari pun aku tak mampu,
Udara mlm pun terlalu menusuk ragaku,
Di persembunyian aku menari,
Di persembunyian aku menyanyi,
P3j4nt4n t4ngguh...

Begitu byk lagu yang ku cipta utkmu,
Hanya sj aku x bisa,
Mengungkapnya kpd mu,
fariNanananana...

Ajari aku 'tuk jadi p3j4nt4n t4ngguh (4X)

terima kasih Mbak N43m atas surprise buat kita semua. Makasih, makasih...
Anyway...part mimpi tuh aku konfius sket. Mimpi basah ke? Har har har...siot jek! Go Sh31L4 on 7!!!

It's been a long day...

Went 'dorsi'ing with Dila (my sista) early in the morning. Gile lama tak mendorsikan diri, bley buat 5 lap jek??! Damn. So ^^*&^$%#^$@ out of shape.

Checked out from Bluewave, went to Subang to get a present for Ika. Last minute shopping gitu. Supposed to meet them for a surprise gathering for Ika and Lisa at 4pm, but naturally, it started off later than that. The gathering was to celebrate our birthdays...thanks people! From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

Later gave Encik Zul a call, we arranged for dinner at Tup41-tup41. Good food. A bit pricey though, but perhaps because I was comparing to kedai Izzat ke Tropic in uni10, memang la not comparable actually! But my duit tak keluar..ngehehe. Alhamdulillah, murah rezeki.

He mentioned t4nch4p's blog a couple of times...oh-oww...maknanya, dia online juge. I sorta mentioned that I have a blog too...but he's gonna have to find it. I am not telling. That, assuming that he has not indeed found this blog. Kalau dah? Err...err...kalau dah, HAI ZUL!

He gave a copy of his upcoming movie's script. My tasks?
1. komen storyline
2. komen karektor, macamana aku bayangkan pembawakan sesuatu watak tu
3. pilih watak mana, yang menurut aku, paling sesuai dengan zul. (menurut aku, susah ni kerja nih)
4. nyatakan bile saya membaca skrip itu, apakah nama2 pelakon yg terlintas di minda utk bawakan watak2 utama dlm filem tersebut.

Menarik ke tak tuh?

I like the script already. But I am not gonna comment in here. Hehehe...tunggu lah filem itu di pawagam terdekat dgn anda! :P

Khamis, Mei 13, 2004

Ngehehehe...

Thanks, thanks...millions of thanks!!!

Shamam: Aminnn, Aminn lagi sekalik! Har har har!

Lissa: Lagu Andrian dan Fifi ke tuh? Aku tau, aku tau! heheh

Peon and Zeff: Merci beaucoup mes amies! (btol ke nih?)

Pakcik: The one that Lissa likes. Make sure she won't ketuk your head with it though.

Fatma: Leave Johnny out of this. Ha ha ha...kidding. Thanks anakanda ku!

Arief: Thanks a lot, bros!
Wish list? Had to take it down, tak muat. Kamera LOMO top of my list...ingat nak beli gak la nanti. Yang lain tuh, dah tak nak dah.
Nak kena amalkan apa yang lecturer aku cakap,
"Want all that you have, therefore you will have all that you want."
Ha ha...macam cakap tak serupa bikin je aku nanti!

Kak Yatie dan my precious Adam: Terima kasih kakanda ku terchenta! Miss you soooo much! Adam, Auntie miss you too, walaupun kita lom jumpe. Huwaaa...nak gi sana, tapi apakan daya! Take care coz I care...

Kak Noni dan Farrah: A cake and a bouquet of flowers! Thank you sooooo much! *nangis, nangis...terharu banget* Makasih ya Mbak berdua!

The list goes on...Mak, Abah, Atuk, Mak Naz, famili sume...Teman-temanku, Aja, Faie, Naem, Shamam, Kak Im, Ull, Encik ZHM, Bolo, Lara, Aiie, Nana, Gerard, Fairuz, Shidah, Ika, Azim, Raj, Anis, Yatt, Abang Long, Moon, Abang Man, Arief, Lin, Lissa, Pakcik, Dol, Diana, Effa, Ejot, Fara, Soraya, Ili, Zack, GG, Kak Suzie (these 2 lovely ladies share the same birthday with me! Yeayy!!), Kak Noni, Farrah, Kak Yatie, Adam dan Abang Ali, Hajar, Suaz, Nurul, Ijah, Raudha, Yanie, Wieza, Syuhi, Minn, Aida, Dibah, Memel, Dyla, Peon, Zeff, Fatma, Johnny, George, Wills, Jon and Colin...dan lagi, dan lagi...terima kasih.

And I am absolutely adoring this pair of boots given by Mak Naz! Best gilek! Har har...

Best nya korang nih!

Rabu, Mei 12, 2004

What it feels like to be 22?

Feels great. I woke up early. Soak up the sunshine. It's a good day to be alive. I was born 22 years before today...22 years? Alhamdulillah. Allah panjangkan umur aku lagi setahun.

Thanks to those who called, those who tried to call but couldn't talk to me coz the phone was engaged, thanks to those who sent in sms, thanks to those who sent me cards, postcards, thanks to those yang wish kat my tagboard, thanks to those who changed their ym and msn status to commemorate my birthday, thanks to those who gave me really nice presents this year, thanks to those yang belanja makan, thanks to those yang promise nak belanja makan...Thank you. Terima kasih. Merci beaucoup! Xie Xie!

I felt loved!!!

Eastin, 12 may 2002...ingat tak kawan2? Those were the days, pergh kenangan lalu di masa muda gitu!

There seems to be more comment on marriage and boyfriends from my wellwishers this year. Clear sign that I am getting old. All I can say is, jodoh sampai, kawen la aku. Doain aja ya teman2? Muehehehe

Selasa, Mei 11, 2004

Abang Chik...kegembiraan hati ku yang dulu

Naem cakap gambar dia jadi. Cun pulak tuh. Tapi aku belum tengok lagi. Tapi aku dah thrill. Baru je tadi marah-marah. Terus cool. Ha ha...dia masih menjadi kegembiraan hatiku kah? Masihkah?

teringat kenangan sewaktu sekolah...haha I have to admit, I was a die-hard fan, and maybe a part of me still is that. After all, I grew up with their music...his voice, his poster in my locker, his name on my textbooks and exercise books...owh, zaman persekolahan!

Tapi sekarang dia dah poyo.

Can someone let his wife know, that no matter how many movies she gonna act in, be it 100, 1000...she just can't act. That's a fact, kan? Or aku je yang rasa begitu?
Idiots!!

How on earth can you grow up to be such idiots.
And those idiotic people who trusts you. May Allah save them all.
I was an idiot before. I trusted you. Alhamdulillah, thanks for my friends, I am no blind anymore.
May you learn your lesson one day.
May you realize that nobody likes you!

Bangang...beruk...&^$^%$%^(*&*@#@##!!!!

Stay out of my face!
Enjoy this skin for now. Am not sure how satisfied I am with it, but at least you guys will be able to read my blog...so, for now.

Sabtu, Mei 08, 2004

Janganlah cakap Dollah tak datang...

sob sob...

*sedih*
Anybody going to watch S4turd4y N1GhT F3v3R at 1st4n4 Bud4y4?

I want...I want!!! But Uncle said there's no free tics this time. So I'll have to buy a tic myself.

Should I buy it for my own birthday present?

Should I?

Or maybe I can beg Mak to give a tic as a birthday present.

I'm not asking for much, right?

They say the cheapest tic is selling for RM127. Is that true?

I can't stand the pain of looking at that figure. The cheapest lak tuh.

Tapi...AKU NAK TENGOK JUGAKKKKKKK!!!!!!!
So what??!

So what if aku tak tidur semalaman tadi kerana tengok m3t30r g4rd3n lagi?
So what if mak pun dah terpengaruh sama?
So what if tema cerita itu sebetulnya dah basi, rich boy poor girl?
So what if cerita itu sebetulnya lame?
So what if the FL0w3r 4 tuh actually berlakon macam kayu?
So what if the beauty of F4 rivalled the beauty of the heroins?
So what if J3rry Y4n has the flattest ass I have ever seen? (By the way, a study by yours truly and her crazy friends revealed that out of all 4, V1c Zh0u is the one whole has the roundest bot and largest thighs too, eventhough he's the skinniest. Funny what you found out sometimes, aite?)
So what if they dress like *ehem* jinjang?
So what if I say I think I have fallen for D40 M1nG S1 again?...although if in real life there's anyone like him, I'd stay away. My systems would go haywire with that kind of attitude nearby. (Jika D40 M1ng S1 jadi pacarku...uhh, mau, mau, mau, mau!!!)
So what if I am so sleepy now, but I think tonight would be another sleepless one as I plan to continue with m3t30r g4rd3n 2 pula?

So what??! So whatt??!!

Suka hati aku lah.

Ha ha ha!!!
Mak came back from Kota Bharu today. Teman Mak pergi rumah Atuk di Damansara, then rumah Mak Naz pula. Mereka berbual sampai pukul 12 lebih. Then Mak Naz ajak pergi A&W PJ, makan waffle. Dan kami pergi. Dan saya hantar Mak Naz dan 2 anaknya pulang ke Subang Jaya. Dan saya dan Mak pulang ke PJ. Dan Mak ajak borak-borak. Dan kemudian dia mahu tengok tv. Tak sampai 5 minit Mak dah lelap. He he...

She's been going outstation so much, tiap-tiap minggu she'll be somewhere. But next week, she'll be in Shah Alam! And she'll be staying at a hotel there! Imagine that...I mean...Shah Alam dgn PJ, bukan jauh pon, nak tidur kena situ jugak? Ha ha...might as well too, coz I have plans to accompany her (and make use of the hotel facilities, if they have any :p).
Mak was saying about I might have to go around on my own, kena carik makan sendiri, kena carik breakfast sendiri, she might be busy yada yada...and I was like, "Alahai Mak...ni Shah Alam je. Kak Ngah boleh jalan mana-mana pun, tak sesat le (err...mungkin la aku akan sesat, but somebody said that in Shah Alam you can't be lost, only jalan jauh ke dekat coz everything is in circles. I find that quite true also) Carik makan...susah- susah sangat, pergi rumah Opah ke, Mak Yang ke, Mak Tam ke...or, balik je PJ". Ha ha...it will not be the first time I would be accompanying her. All the time I have managed on my own..Langkawi, Klang...(to name a few yang aku rasakan mencabar minda dan emosi...ha ha).

So people, anyone planning to give me a surprise next week on any day (12 may, if you want to be particular) I shall be in Shah Alam. Ahahahaha...

Dan menariknya...minggu depan kelas2 SA postpone. And kelas on 18th too. And test on the 17th too. Bestnya! Ahaha...Tapi, ada tapinya...still kena slave ourselves, buat project. 19th kena submit. 24th present SA, 25th submit and present CG pulak. Adeh...

Anis wants to get A for both subjects. WHO DOESN'T??! But even from the look on her face, she knows that's almost, almost...impossible. But it is possible. I am sceptical too...but I made that same plan for myself. 2 A...4 flat. Who knows..who knows...ha ha...results for last semester is out...semua lulus, so I have these 2 subjects je nak dirisaukan. No repeats. I should be able to graduate in time. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Maka sekarang aku jemput semua ke majlis konvokesyen aku. Ntah la bile tarikhnya. Ehehehekkss...

Jumaat, Mei 07, 2004

Dear you,

Didn't know what came over you today. Then I didn't know what came over me too.
Too much has happened between us, aite?
I regret saying half the things I said. What I said is true...but, there's no need to share it all with you. It's unfair to load it on you. I was coping just fine before this. Now what will you think of me when you see me again, if you ever see me again? (I still have this mild impression that you are not too keen on meeting me again, sorry). Am I now emotionally unstable? You'd probably start pitying me too. Oh no please don't...if it helps, please try to forget what I said. And never, ever bring it up again. Please. I beg you. Just don't look at me with pitiful eyes. Even if you do, I'd probably simply look away.
Maybe I am selfish. So I am. Maybe you're hurt. Maybe you're not. Maybe I haven't been thinking about your feelings. But when I try to...I just...Look, I am sorry. Can you give me more time? I'll try to erase every bad memories of us. Can you try too? Please? I did say please.
And while you trying, can you please try to stop telling me I am great? It's actually getting old.
By the way, how the hell do you think I could think that your life is boring? Don't you even know me anymore?
I am sorry. My friend, we will meet again.
But I hope you understand why I don't want to meet her. I am scared. I am terrified. And it bothers me that I am terrified. It makes me sick, and now I feel like crying, but I don't want to be crying! Perhaps you didn't realize how much I was broken inside, especially after that first meeting with her. Perhaps I didn't too. But with just a single phone call, I went berserk. Then I knew. Oh well, I can always lie. There's always that. Should I?
I just wanted to tell you about her. If I can't tell you, if you don't care, who else would?

Yours truly,
Me.

Rabu, Mei 05, 2004

Farina and Eross
  • Trying to adopt 2.4 stylish kids.
  • Choose not to read at every opportunity.
  • Make beautiful music together.
Orchestrated by ianiceboy


2.4? How's that?
Beautiful music...
hehehhehehhehhe...ekekkekekekekke...kuikuikuikuikuikui...harharhar

Farina and Shahrul anuar
  • Plan to have an expensive kid.
  • Can't wait to lovingly serenade each other weekly.
  • Are metaphorically attached at the hip.
Orchestrated by ianiceboy


Shahrul Anuar adalah anak Pakcik Zain yang kachak. hu hu hu
(Shahrul Anuar yang kacak. Pakcik Zain...mungkin suatu ketika dulu, dia pon kachak. he he...)

Farina and Nazrul irham
  • Will never adopt three gruesome kids.
  • Enjoy it when they hug each other for the good of the free world.
  • Couldn't be happier.
Orchestrated by ianiceboy



hu hu hu...Ar13L!! hu hu!!!

First of all, I'd like to say sorry to a certain someone, I just have to write this okay. It is bothering my mind more than I thought it would.
Have always been dreading that phone call I received today. Let's just say, I hope she forgets about that promise she made. I don't want to meet her again. It was an agony, the other time, perhaps it would be that again. Although, I must say...situation has changed. I am not that stupid little girl still infatuated with that certain someone. Seriously.
So maybe she wouldn't effect me as much as that last time, would she?
But she's a b**ch.
After meeting her, I don't know what to think of him. Or what to trust. I can't believe my judgement. Even now, sometimes I still have doubts.
Plus, meeting her makes me feel, inadequate.
So what can I say to her? Should I lie? Should I just tell her upfront that I have no time to spare for her? Can somebody help me here?
Semalam Ayan sakit perut, muntah-muntah. Tengah-tengah malam tu rushing dengan Abah bawak dia ke hospital. Food poisoning. Balik je dari hospital, aku lak yang nak muntah.
Hari nih, aku lak demam.
Tak larat gile...

Isnin, Mei 03, 2004

Aku kangen banget

sama mereka...


dan terutama dia...


when and if I see him again, it would probably take me every inch of self-restraint I have to stop me from going and shag him, right there and then.

He's my P3J4NT4N T4NGGUH all right... :D




Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

You are a Queen!
Beautiful, Wise, Strong
Righteous, Commanding, Humble


You are the beautiful and compassionate Queen. You are the epitomy of what every woman should be. You are confident, bold, aggressive, smart, womanly and feminine. You know the right thing to do and do it. You command respect and earn praise. You are moral and loving. In times of trouble, you draw strength from within, and are a source of strength for others.

Ahad, Mei 02, 2004

I didn't write about that disturbing phone call I got a few days back. I don't want to write in detail about that call, coz who knows the caller might read this. He'll get the pleasure of knowing how much he pissed me off. For whatever reason that he's bugging me, now with sms pulak...I'd like him to stop. Or at least, have the courtesy to introduce himself properly. I really like to know from where he got my number, and my name as well. And I'd also like to ask, adakah anda rempit?
I'd like to quote Raudha, 'Nobody in this world is a stranger, it's just that we're yet to be introduced' (betul ke Cik Raudha, macam ni ke?) Fine. So introduce yourself. Be a man. Or half a man. Whatever. Like I care.
Oh yeah...and could somebody tell me apa relevannya ayat ini "Alaa...awak teka lah siapa saya. Jom kita main teka2...esok kan cuti"
So what kalau esok cuti? Apsal nak main teka2? Ya ampun!

Sabtu, Mei 01, 2004



can't wait...

who's going to indo in the near future? Aku mau titip. Nak nak...
8.00 a.m
Gerak from home to Klang, as I said I would. Yeheyy...
I told Gerard I would call him as I reach Tol Batu 3, not realizing Tol Batu 3 is that Shah Alam toll I passed everytime nak balik kampung (to those yang tak tahu, kampung ku Shah Alam lerr), I drove passed it, singing merrily to the sound of Dollah's (bukan nama sebenar) voice. Only when I reached Tol Sg. Rasau, I realized that fact. Oh well, so what if I had to wait for him. Better than to have him wait for me, it is me afterall, who needed his help. He came, lead me straight to Lin's grandma's house, and even showed me the route back. Thank you bros!

9.00 a.m
Naem and Kurtney slept over at Lin's place. So they're already there...2nd time meeting Kurt, I made her call me 'Farina' despite her efforts to call me FG just like other Sheilaganksters do, because she kept messing my name with another girl's name. If it was any other girl aku tak kisah pun...tapi kerana awek itu...nggak mauk ah! He he...sorry Kurtney. :)
Spent the next few hours helping Lin getting ready, i.e buffed her nails (I took the left hand, Naem the other), betulkan selendang, pakaikan baju...bla bla. All the while thinking, 'my friend's getting married. My friend is getting married...wahh...'. Nikah was supposed to be at 10, due to some unforeseen circumstances, it got delayed. I was going on and on with my motto of the day, which was "Janji kahwin!" Yeahh...tak kisahlah apa pun berlaku. :p
Meanwhile, Im and Des arrived, with Lissa and Pakcik. As I sat and listen to Lin giving out directions to people while she was made up, it downed to me that if it wasn't for Gerard, I too would be calling for help. I would be stranded in the middle of Klang with no f**king idea where to head. Ha ha...lucky me.

12.10 p.m
Lin dan Arief selamat di ijab kabulkan dengan sekali lafaz je. Alhamdulillah. Ull listened to the live telecast via Emi's phone. I guess the pressure is on her, sure tension abis la awek tuh! Lek Ull, kalau kau kahwin, sape nak meronggeng dengan aku lagi? Tunggu lah weh, kahwin serentak yuk? :p
By the way, Arief...pengapit kau handsome lar. ngehehehehe (gelak ala Ili)

After that, the usual makan2, ngobrol2, Dura came, I sat with her, plans were made for 22 Mei (Dollah is coming to town, ye ye), pictures were taken, Lin and Arief tukar baju (baju nikah was cream coloured, then tukar pakai persalinan turquoise. Lin lawa. Arief handsome. Together, they made a very fetching couple, I tell you!), another round of flashes, smile, smile, smile. :)
Im and Des went off, followed by Lissa and Pakcik and Naem and Kurtney too...Shamam, Memel, Jira, Poji and Pharez arrived, muka frust je pasal sesat (sekali lagi, nasib baik aku tak sesat! Har har har). I was there till 3, then left with Shamam's clan. Dengan jayanya aku tunjuk jalan pulang...ha ha ha

To Lin dan Arief, Semoga Berbahagia, Sahabat.

So, who's next? Please don't point your fingers at me. Calon pun aku belum ada. Ekekeke...
By the way...it's 12 days to my birthday. Hu hu hu :p

But it's also 14 days lagi, lengkaplah 1 tahun Arwah Uncle Johan pergi. I missed him. Still kept the last present he gave, last year for my 21st birthday. He said, 21st birthday is special. He wanted to buy a gift for me, tapi since dia dalam hospital dan tak tahu bila dia akan keluar, plus he doesn't know apa yang aku suka, so he gave me some money. 2 days after my birthday...he left the hospital. He left the world. And I missed him a lot.

Al-Fatihah...
Lin's getting married today. Was supposed to bunk at her place for the night but...I'm at home, unable to sleep. Perhaps the excitement is already in me...wah wah mereka mahu kahwin! Apapun early morning nanti have to be there, the akad at 9.30, planningnya. Have to gerak at 8 from PJ. Thank God Gerard volunteer diri guide aku to her place. Kalau tak sure sesat punye lah aku. Makasih Encik Gerard!
Aku belum gosok pakaian nak pakai esok lagi. It's already after 3 pagi, berapa jam nak tidur nih? Ha ha...

I was told by Osh, that he has been reading my blog for quite sometime. First reaction aku, tutup muka...malu! Then when he said, "apa nak malu?", Aku pun pikir...apa ek yang dimalukan? Nothing. Nada. Yilek. Perhaps because I was under the impression that only a handful of people reads this thing. I guess I have to accept the fact that when people search for 'L4y4r T4nch4p', this blog would be on the list. So welcome readers! A special welcome to Encik OSH! Duduk, duduk...nak kopi? nak teh? :)

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