sebenarnya aku pengen tulis what happened as it is. tapi aku tahu aku akan regret. tapi aku mahu kamu tahu apa yg telah terjadi padaku. and so i walked there. but u were not there. he was. he looked and me and knew something's wrong. and he said...talk to me. but i cant. i know u wont like it. which pisses me off since why should i still care what u like or not??
knowing u has been a great experience. mcm rollercoaster. 1 minit kat atas, 1 minit aku menjunam kebawah dgn hanya tali pinggang to secure me, which..if it gives, aku arwah serta merta. which reminds me. aku kena beli insurans nyawa.
mungkin tak selayaknya aku hadir. mungkin aku harus segera pergi. mungkin ada org nak sponsor aku study di indon? where i shall be gone for good.
aku benci perkataan mungkin.
mungkin aku harus berhenti memikirkan kemungkinan.