Semalam, 2 April 2008, genap 3 tahun Arwah Abah kembali ke Rahmatullah.
Kebetulan pulak both myself and my youngest sister demam semalam, 2-2 mc. I didn't realize it at first, that yesterday marked the 3rd year of him leaving us. It was only when my sister made a remark about it, barulah aku terkedu kejap.
Rasa macam baru je. Rasa macam boleh dengar lagu suara dia kadang-kadang. Rasa macam tertunggu-tunggu je his phone calls untuk kejutkan aku dulu kalau ada exams (yeah, he would call me every single morning masa aku kat uniten kalau aku ada exams. Sekaligus membangunkan housemates aku juga sampai kitorg pun dah terbiasa tak pasang alarm clock). Rasa macam ternampak-nampak je wajah dia. Rasa macam terngiang-ngiang je dia gelak besar (some said I laugh just like him, cuma aku versi perempuan. Hahaha...)
Rasa rindu. Sangat sangat.
But as cliche as this might sound, I know he lives in me. When people made remarks about how my writing looks just like his, or when ppl say how much I look like him...it makes me happy.
Abah, I might not say this to you as much as I should...I love you, Abah. I love you truly very really much.